Hi unknownangel
I could be completely wrong but you sound like a bit of a 'feeler' or 'sensitive', someone who can feel/sense easily and deeply at times. If that's the case, I can relate to how tough life can be when we're trying to get a feel for or a sense of the way ahead.
It sounds like you can sense unhelpful advice when you feel it, you can sense the kinds of things that bring you relief, joy or excitement when you feel them, you can sense what leads you to not feel numb when you feel it etc etc. While it's one thing to be able to sense or feel, it's another to be able to use that incredibly natural ability or super natural ability in constructive ways. As a 55yo gal, I admit I'm still learning😬.
Sometimes what's constructive involves questioning who to trust. For example
- Do I trust my parents in this case, based on them having years of life experience? Do I get a sense that what they're doing is actually the right thing? Are they 'grounding me' out of something that's going to seriously harm me, as I feel myself flying high in a state of excitement?
- Do I trust a part of me that tells me 'This therapist is making zero difference after all these months. It's time to find someone else'? Can I sense or feel any difference whatsoever in these sessions? Does this feel like a complete waste of my time?
- Do I trust my feelings, in regard to where this situation is heading? Can I sense it heading in a really bad direction? Can I gain a sense of vision in regard to where it's heading. Btw, it's one thing to be a feeler and another to be a seer as well
- Who can I trust to offer me alternatives when it comes to gaining relief from that 'numb' feeling in life? Why is no one offering me constructive alternatives that are worth imagining and practicing? Why are they all just saying 'You can't do that'? Where's the plan or way forward in that advice? Btw, if you can't feel or sense any plan, chances are there is no relatable plan or way ahead being offered
I'm going to flip the script here and offer a different way of perceiving things. If no one is offering different things for you to feel, how are you meant to feel a difference? If no one is offering different things to see (through your imagination or mind's eye), regarding the way forward, how are you meant to see the way forward? If no one is offering you ways to tap into constructive inner dialogue, how are you meant to hear the kind of inner guidance or direction that's going to really serve you? For a feeler, seer or hearer, life sucks when you can't feel, see or hear (within your mind) the way forward. We can end up feeling numb, blind and deaf. I'm not a fan of that kinda vibe, that's for sure. How to feel, how to see and how to hear can be key to unlocking the way ahead. Nothing quite like a soulful education to create a more soulful sense of connection to life.
