In a state of Ambivalence

[TheForest]

I am in a bad place…ambivalence has settled into my space. I feel stuck, afraid and unsure of everything around me. Has anyone had experience with this and what did you do to help move you through it? 

[Sophie_M]

Dear TheForest
 
Welcome to the Beyond Blue forums we are so glad that you have made you way here and had the bravery to post. We want you to know that this is a safe space to discuss your thoughts, feelings and experiences and receive honest responses and suggestions from fellow forum users.
 
We are sorry to hear that you are having such a difficult time recently, but we’re so pleased you have reached out to the supportive community. Sometimes life can feel like we are taking on too much, or that we are not getting any reprieve from the never-ending demands of daily life. It is in moments like these, we like to offer a friendly ear to listen to these troubles and discuss any options or assistance that may be appropriate.
 
We are also here 24/7 on 1300 22 4636 or via our Webchat.  Our team who answer the phones are ready to have a supportive and non-judgmental chat whenever you need it.
 
We’re sure to hear from some of our lovely community members here on your thread soon. They’re a really amazing community, and will have understanding, advice and kind words for you.  Thanks again for sharing. It’s a powerful and brave first step towards feeling better.
 
Regards 
 
Sophie M
 

[Croix]

Dear TheForest~

I'd like to join Sophie_M in welcoming you here, I'm glad you came and wish that I'd had this place to come to in the past when I had feelings a bit like you describe. I was afraid - of what I might do, felt everything was hopeless with no way of getting out, and unsure of everything, particularly myself. I could not understand myself or what I was doing, or other's reactions to me

Does this sound anything like you are going though? I would like to know more anyway if you did not mind, then perhaps I or others might be able to see similarities and what helped them.

In my case I told someone I trusted, and that was followed by medical assistance through a GP and a psychiatrist. Due to their and my family's support I've recovered to the extent I lead a pretty good life and the things that so deeply worried me are not there - or not much anyway

I hope we can talk some more

Croix

[Bob_22]

Hi TheForest,

Welcome to the forums and thank you for sharing your story. I can definitely relate to how you feel about feeling unsure and lost. I have felt this many times in life and even to a certain extent now.

As Sophie and Croix fantastically pointed out, it is a great idea to reach out, whether it be here on the forums, to a friend or to a GP/mental health professional. In my personal experience when I've been stuck in the midst of a depressive episode I sometimes found that patience and hope were my saving grace. 

My main focus has always been on my mental health. Outside of that I have learned that it is sometimes best to wait for opportunities as opposed to force myself into a certain direction. In giving myself space, I was allowed to heal and eventually be healthy enough to find out what I had/wanted to do in life. This was ultimately my ethos, and it prevented me from burning myself out. I found focussing inward and improving my mental health through means of professional support gave me freedom to do whatever it is I desired.

I hope this makes some sense and can resonate a little. Please keep us updated. 😊💙💙

Bob