I don't think I was made for this world, I'm too weak even for the "help" we get

[Jessksch]

I have been battling depression since I was 13, I am over 35 now and my new part-time job or any other job is killing me with how low the pay is. At first it was ok, I had an inheritance and could work only 25 hours and still save money and enjoy life...but now things are so expensive, rent is being increases each year...

I am barely holding on. I bought 3 pints of ice cream because, I am so close to ending things now on my side because I am too tired with all the xmas retail crap going on to do anything fun, and with only part-time hours and an inheritance, i still can't save money for things I used to enjoy...

I'm hoping I can at least get something or one last advice to make me change my mind honestly because I know my partner always says he'll support me, but I can't have that happen, I am not going to drain his savings just because I can't support myself.

[Sunflower23]

Hey Jessksch,

Just wanted to say that I hear you and thanks for sharing. I want you to know that you’re not alone in what you’re going though with the financial rent worries and struggling at the moment. It sounds like your partner is supportive and that he loves you. It’s ok to lean on your loved ones and others, especially in the tough moments. It sounds like your going though a really tough time and I want to encourage you that you matter. Do something small for yourself that makes you feel good. Small steps count. You matter!

[Jessksch]

Thank you for the reply, I really really appreciate it. I made a last step to talk to my psychologist tomorrow and tried really to get through today, but finishing again with just crying to myself. I'm too poor to do a course, can't drive and can't do a trade because of it. I'm stuck in retail, part-time is already driving me to drink ( was sooooo close to getting a bottle after work). I will tak to my psychologist tomorrow morning and see...