Dear Keane~
Welcome here to the Forum, I'm sorry ot hear you have been bullied on-line, it tends to bring out the worst in people and frankly the only way to really stop it is to not go on-line yourself.
I'm glad you feel better at the moment however given you past feelings not caring at the moment may be just what you need. Even so it is always possible that something new may upset you again. there is no need to tell you that depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts are serious matters and really should be looked into so that if anything upsetting happens you can cope better.
Do you have anyone in your life who is on your side, takes your problems seriously and shows they care? It can be a help not to be alone.
I too have had depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts and no real control over when they happened or how severe they became. I could not keep myself in positive frame of mind and needed proper help. If in the short term I felt overwhemed I'd use Lifeline on 13 11 14 and in the longer term try to get an early double appointment with a GP and say what has been happening and how you felt.
It might seem a bit scary or embarrassing to tell someone else how things are, but I found it was the only way to feel better and be more able to cope when life was not good.
If you are under 25 I'd strongly suggest getting in contact with the Kids Help Line on 1800 55 1800 as they are very expereince with the things young people face, and are a comfort. Actually they are so good everyone knows and you may face a wait on the phone to get on, I suggest watch TV, play a game, read a book do something else while you wait.
If you would like to come back and talk some more you would be welcome
Croix
