Hi arka
I feel for you so much as you face one of the most challenging times in your life. It can be far from easy to manage a challenge that's never been managed before, so please be kind to yourself and patient with yourself as you navigate.
Do you think what feels like a dead end could actually be a fork in the road? While your main path appears to be ending, perhaps now what you face is a choice. There's the choice between a continuation of the path you're on and a largely different path. Perhaps the new path entails one of greater self understanding (why you're suffering, what the hallucinations are about etc). Whether the new path is a detour that will eventually put you back on your main path of study or whether it involves a path that leads to a whole different way of life (a new you), it may be hard for you to see at this point and that's okay. For now, just consider what you face, the choice. If you choose the path that leads you to better understand yourself, what does that look like? Does it involve guidance counseling, a psychologist, someone who's more geared toward the soulful stuff in life or someone entirely different?
