Vent and then let it go...

[Guest_1055]

Not sure about anyone else but sometimes I just need to vent, including venting any frustrations, fears, hopes, worries, longings and anything else. Most of the time I don't want any advice or any responses. Just need a way to get it all out from within me.

So thought this thread could be for those sort of things. No one replys to you with words or anything. It's a place to let it all go. Just dump whatever it is you want to say and leave it here.

So yeah no replys please.

[Guest_1055]

In my imagination... And I am still just holding on there. I look forward and see rows and rows of bars on that monkey bar thing. Feels overwhelming actually and a bit scary. So I will attempt to shorten my focus and only notice the couple of bars in front of me. Perhaps only one of them. One bar is one day. Just need to live one day at a time.

Maybe my imagination is weird, I don't know. Could be a good thing

[Guest_1584]

Angry at myself, and bloody annoyed.

Full stop.

rx

[Guest_1055]

Something happened today that left me feeling sad. I chose to forgive the person. Because it seems if I don't then either I just keep hanging on that monkey bar (that I wrote about whenever that was) not moving forward at all or I keep looking back on the situation and how sad it was. Why do I keep looking back it only causes more pain. What is the point of that.

[Guest_1055]

Being rejected by other people hurts. That happened a lot to me while growing up and even now. I am just invisible.

[Guest_4643]

I know how you feel Shelll, trust me. That's happened to me my whole life and still does also. I'm sorry that's happening to you and you feel that way. You're not invisible, especially here. We're here for you.

[Guest_1643]

why do i say i'm fine when i'm not fine?

it's a natural response for me

conceal the pain, at all times

never be truthful

make other ppl feel "comfortable" to talk to me

don't be "too much"

don't be "too depressing"

be friendly and light

hold on the sadness in, at all times.

[Guest_1055]

Sorry you experienced that too Tay. Rejection can hurt a lot. Some days I can handle it, some days not.

And I definitely feel invisible on BB. I think it is because I don't know how to truly connect and most conversations that I have on here don't seem to flow back and forth. It is like that in real life as well. What's that word Rapport? idk. Can't do it no matter how hard I try.

Anyway I am very sorry you experienced the pain of rejection. It can be the worst of hurt there is

[Guest_1055]

Hug if you will accept it Sleepy. No reply needed at all either. I will just leave the hug here for you.

[Guest_1584]

Yaknow acceptance or rejection stops worrying you when you stop caring what other people think. l finally stopped giving a damn a few yrs back now except of course with anyone l really care about , best thing l ever did. l see people , l know what they think good or bad , but so what , who cares what they thing l simply just don't care anymore. Funny thing is too that when you stop caring the seem to like you more anyway . Give it a go , start training .

Hi sleepy . Yeah it is weird l know being that way . 99.9% of people would have no idea how l'm really feeling , but me l kinda like it that way. Bc it's not only not really their problem , it's mine , but it only brings everyone down anyway , me included. l find some good under the rug pretty handy mostly .

Go easy on yourself hey . rx

[Harpbird]

My vent is crazy drivers, were flooded in, water rushing under the house out over the road, drivers must think it’s fun to go that fast their cars have disappeared in the water spray. Then causes waves into our house. So many are actually driving holding there phones filming as their going along , rgggggg