Vent and then let it go...

[Guest_1055]

Not sure about anyone else but sometimes I just need to vent, including venting any frustrations, fears, hopes, worries, longings and anything else. Most of the time I don't want any advice or any responses. Just need a way to get it all out from within me.

So thought this thread could be for those sort of things. No one replys to you with words or anything. It's a place to let it all go. Just dump whatever it is you want to say and leave it here.

So yeah no replys please.

[mmMekitty]

Oh, yeah, Guest_1055, I play video games, (not as much as I sued to, but I have a couple I am able toplay a little. Block puzzle games. No more Sims for me), sometimes. Usually when I want to give my brain a rest, to focus on that silly thing for a while, even though it's 'a waste of time', but is it really, if it helps me de-stress, gets my thoughts off my feelings for a while? I think that's okay, sometimes. But when I was playing, up late, until the dawn, that was not so good for me. A little bit now & then is okay.

If you are remembering to get up & eat, move around & maybe doing exercise, getting the usual chores done, going to appointments, all that stuff, it's okay to have some 'down time' with the games.

Somewhere it is written, 'everything in moderation', isn't it?

More hugzies

nnNekitty

[Guest_1055]

Thankyou for hearing my voice or reading my post mmMekitty. 

[Guest_1055]

The feeling of a blanket of " I don't want to be here" is on me. I am so tired of exisiting. It doesn't make any sense to. I am so much in my head or thoughts , I cannot shut them off. I can do something to distract myself, but it is like a band-aid. The problem is still there deep down. I don't know how to fix it.

So very tired.

[Sophie_M]

Hey Guest_1055,

We're so sorry to hear you're dealing with thoughts of not wanting to be here today. We know it isn’t easy to share something like this, but we think it’s a powerful step and we really appreciate your openness and bravery in sharing.

We wanted to let you know we're here if you want to reach out to our counsellors to talk this through, we’re on 1300 22 4636, and you can reach us online here. There are also our friends over at the Suicide Call Back service on 1300 659 467, or Lifeline on 13 11 14. If you’re feeling suicidal or are having thoughts about harming yourself, it's important that you take immediate steps to keep safe. If you feel unable to keep yourself from acting on your thoughts about suicide or self-harm this is an emergency, and you need to call 000 (triple zero).

Maybe you could share if there's anything in the past that has helped you through these kind of thoughts? Maybe it was a good counsellor or mental health professional, maybe it was something suggested in a suicide safety plan, like sharing your feelings with a close friend or relative, or maybe it was something you were doing like exercise or creativity that distracts you and gives you some purpose? We’d love to hear if there’s anything coming to mind. 

Please keep sharing your words on our forums. Many forum members may have experience with some of the challenges you mention, and we think they will find great value in your kind and courageous words.

Kind regards,

Sophie M

[Ggrand]

Hello Dear Guest,

I am sorry you’re feeling that way, it’s hard lovely Guest to get out of our own head, those thoughts keep on bombarding us constantly….I can relate to the distraction only lasting as long as we’re doing it…it sometimes feels not worth the effort, but it is…even a few minutes of peace is worth fighting for…

My volunteer job is causing me so much stress and today before I left for work my thoughts were of running away…not just from work but from my home, me, life and everything I have…it would have been so easy, but I got myself to work, had a hard time, came home, cried then sat out on my veranda, closed my eyes and just listened to anything I could…after about an hour my thoughts were much more calmer and I said to myself…that I can get through this depressive bad patch I’m going through….even if it’s only a day, 2 days, a week or a month…..eventually I know that my depression will find me again…it always does, but those days, weeks or months I’m depression free…feels really good and I’ll keep reaching out for those times….I hope so much sweetheart that you also will keep reaching out for those peaceful times….

Please Guest, Get into contact with one or all of those contacts our beautiful Sophie has given you in the above post….You’re a beautiful and caring person to others here on the forums….please give yourself some of that care and get into contact with one of those contacts Sophie has suggested to you…

Here if you feel to chat…

Thinking of you with kindness and care..

Grandy.l

[mmMekitty]

Sometimes it's the 'bandaids' that make dealing with depression possible.

If you are still awake, Guest, what about putting on some music you like? &/or grab some moisturising cream, & give your own feet a massage, knees & elbows, & hands? Gently, focusing on what you are doing, & feel how it feels to do this little caring for yourself. You might like a late night cuppa, tea, I hope... just focus on making the tea, every step along the way towards making the tea for yourself.

Did you have a shower today? Try doing that. If your hair is wet for a while after, don't worry, you can sleep with a towel, folded in half, on your pillow. I have found it helps a lot to have something to listen to, instead of my own head, when I am wanting to sleep.

If you need, don't hesitate to call BB's Counsellors - they're hhere for you.

Big Hugzies

mmMekitty 

[Eagle Ray]

Dear Guest

Just wanting to send you support. You are not alone and we are here for you. In recent months I’ve had two episodes of not wanting to be here anymore for a while, but I came through and I’m still here. Sometimes it’s just knowing there are caring souls out there who care about you and feeling that care that gets us through. mmMeKitty mentioning making a cup of tea reminded me of when I called Lifeline and got a lovely man who was so kind. He chatted to me about my hometown which took me out of my panic and allowed me to talk about my favourite places here and what the landscape and surroundings are like. At the end of the call he suggested I go and make myself a cup of tea before bed. I went from being in a desperate place to so much calmer, so sometimes we just need that meaningful, kind, gentle and caring human contact that just eases us back into a better place. It’s like we can then settle and feel safe within ourselves.

So don’t hesitate to reach out to the BB helpline or Lifeline for a chat, whatever time of the night or day. Sometimes letting go of the struggle to fix the situation and instead just simple acts of self-care, like Grandy and mmMeKitty describe, are what ease the pain and we can settle and breathe easier again.

Sending you kind and caring thoughts.

[Guest_1055]

Hi Eagleray, mmkitty, Grandy , Sophie. You are all so sweet saying what you said. It did help me feel not so alone in all this. So thankyou.

[Ggrand]

Hello Dear Guest,

How are you feeling today beautiful friend?

If it’s okay, I want to send you a little hug..

Thinking of you Dear Guest..💕🌈🤗.

Grandy..

[Eagle Ray]

Dear Guest

Really glad if you are feeling less alone. We are here and happy to listen if you need a chat. Take care and kind thoughts to you xx