Vent and then let it go...

[Guest_1055]

Not sure about anyone else but sometimes I just need to vent, including venting any frustrations, fears, hopes, worries, longings and anything else. Most of the time I don't want any advice or any responses. Just need a way to get it all out from within me.

So thought this thread could be for those sort of things. No one replys to you with words or anything. It's a place to let it all go. Just dump whatever it is you want to say and leave it here.

So yeah no replys please.

[Guest_1643]

my tooth is really hurting and it's too much for me

i'm so tired

i have only one friend who understands mental health

my other friends almost bully me for not being well. I'm over it.

Makes me close off more and more. No point telling them if they're just goig to have a freak out and stigmatise me, for having the nerve to do something as bold as seeking mental health treatment

we say that there's no stigma anymore, but there is. for so many ppl mental health is such an unacceptable thing. I'm over it.

[Guest_1584]

Yeah for sure sleepy/

My families huge and all so lovey dovey fulla cuddles and fake when you see them. They know nothing about who l am, l'd freak them out if they really knew me bc it's not even remotely the who most of them think. But they'd never get mental health either , or any of that side of me, l'd suspect most of them would be something like your friends too. Really disappointing from a family situation, last ones l'd divulge too though and l've regretted any time l ever had with anything else so l've kept quiet about this . rx

[Justwannasleep]

Recently I managed to get hired for my first job and I was really enthusiastic about working. I wanted to meet new people, gain experience working in a team and feel productive for once.

But after every shift I'm burnt out tired and my boss always manages to find something about me to pick on so I usually cry a little before I get home. I've been trying to look for a new job for a while now because I hate feeling this way every time I go to work, but I haven't been able to get anything. I feel so stuck and helpless. A part of me thinks that maybe I am not good enough at work and I deserve to be picked on. I'm not too sure what to do anymore.

[Guest_1055]

Hey Welcome to Beyond Blue, Justwannasleep. No need to reply to me or anything. Just wanted to say a big hello is all.

And if you wanted to start your own thread to talk further on what you are going through or how you feel about about working and life etc. Or need extra support it may be a good idea. Feel free though.

Big welcome to you

[Guest_1643]

psychiatrist comment
" I think I can help you. You just have to be patient"
"I am patient"
"Talk to me after 50 sessions..."

I don't have another 50 sessions in me, doc. Patience isn't always a virtue.

[Guest_1055]

Maybe I am complaining I don't know. But I feel angry I think.

The person in aldi would not help me. They work there. I absolutely hate it when it seems they cannot be bothered to help. Not only that, I felt judged by her. I know I am messy looking today. Been out at the beach, so my hair was everywhere.. Did not get much sleep last night either. Long story, and I would never hit anyone, but I really felt like slapping her across the face.

It is true, when I don't feel confident in myself, may look a bit messy in the way I am dressed, feeling rejected, then people don't want to help. It has happened before. It is like I radiate rejection and self hate. So others treat me thst way.

I now feel bitter towards her. And I hate that feeling in me.

I attempted to forgive her.

Still feel the aftermath, even uglier, less of a person.

Well she is no better then me is she? We all do things wrong.

Just got to let this all go, but still feel like punching out and slapping.

[CalmCat]

Hi Shelll,

Thank you for sharing, I could relate with what you wrote as people have been rude to me when I'm not looking 100%. But I forgive them as I too can be judgmental with the way in which someone looks.

Its something I have to improve on as looks aren't everything!

Thank you so much for sharing... secretly wish I went to the beach today though (cold weather here in Melbourne today).

Regards,

D

[Guest_4643]

Hey Shelll, I'm sorry that happened to you. That's the woman's fault for being rude, not you. You seem like a lovely person. I often feel like people are judging me etc too.

[Harpbird]

Hi shelll, take no notice of people like that. It happens to us all soon enough. I got very upset while in a huge hardware store by an employee there. But I tried to hold myself together, lucky for me receipts have a time on them now, so when I got home I sent the company a very detailed email detailing what had happened.

they got back to me and they said they checked store cctv and was very apologetic to me about how I was treated. That person was retrained in customer service and put back on three months probation.

just remember there are cameras everywhere now so you can put in a complaint and have it followed up , no one should be treated like that. If we don’t shop in them places they wouldn’t be working there. Just a thought xx

[Guest_1584]

Yeah it can be weird , some people proved me way wrong at times though so although l can read most people pretty damn good l also realized l can be wrong too and the most surprising people can surprise ya.

Congrats on the job wannasleep nice going and of course you'd be valued but sometimes too we just need the right place and job where you fit in and like the work and what have you . Even the exact same thing can be totally different for the better in another place and other people. Hang in there eh , everyone has to find their niche .

Hiya shell and nope , she isn't. But ease up on yourself eh , everyone gets the brush off with shop people and like sometimes. Must admit reckon l'd last about 20mins in a place like that with customers buggin me haha.

rx