About 5 years ago, I was diagnosed with C-PTSD.
The core feature is "The Mental Death" - but no one can understand it unless they have it.
Trapped on my bed, in my room (lucky to not be homeless for a while), I could make no outward changes, so I went inward, and upward, and decided to get a few qualifications for no reason; maybe the future.
Reiki was *so* popular - I figured it was just a gimmick, like anyone could say they were a Reiki Master. (And I'm actually legit very spiritual, and a natural healer - hot-hands and heart, and a touch psychic.)
So I thought: "Well, why don't I just a get qualification." People care about qualifications, but I don't.
I honestly expected nothing.
However, I was SO surprised... I got my Reiki 1 attunement online (which I was even *more* sceptical about!). I lay down at the meeting-time, and just surrendered. Near the end I sensed a strong Rainbow beam out of my right hand, and not long after, literally the lower-third of my brain felt alive again.
Like, I wasn't "healed" but something had definitely changed.
I became a Reiki Master, and tried it on people who also didn't expect anything - and pain instantly disappeared and we were both shocked.
I'm still not healed, but Reiki really was "something", and not nothing.
I use it nearly every day... not always on myself, but it's like, a really interesting phenomena.
Have you looked into herbel remedies?
That helped me, too.
You can't mix some with anti-depressants, and some other medications, but that's because they are derived from it!
Do I recommend Reiki?
Yes.
I especially recommend becoming a Reiki student/master.
Even your attunement may change something!
I got an aromatherapy diploma, an interior design diploma, became a Reiki Master, wrote a TV Pilot, and designed a detailed plan for new Global Governance. I'm sure I did more things, but I just do them because I don't care. And because then people can't tell me to "do something", or "have you tried..."
Anyway, I hope you feel better; I hope everyone does.
