Dear Moody-_ahhhhh~
In one of your other posts you said:
"i really wish i could eradicate every sense of sadness, stress and moodiness in me, my relationships would be so much better. even eating at home feels like it exerts more effort to before" and have also mentioned suicide.
You have been having a very difficult time and maybe having difficulties being placed is the last straw and you have no motivation to go on.
I understand you feel the urgency may have left as you dad has passed away and will not get to see you graduate, however he will have known of the work you have put in so far and would have had confidence you would be successful.
Forgive me if this has already been said by others however your feelings remind me very much of my own when in the grip of long lasting depression. As I result I eventually went and sought medical help. Thanks to family, a very patient psychiatrist and medication this has mostly passed and I'm able to ride over the setbacks and tragedies in life and can cope. My enthusiasms and enjoyments have returned. I would not swap how I am now for anything.
I taught at Uni for many years and one of the most difficult problems was placements and internships needed to achieve a degree, so please do not be down-hearted about that.
You may get some tips on presentation, resume and likly organizations from your tutor, lecturer, head of school or school secretary. If you combine that with a proactive approve and contact as many as you can, in person if possible, then I"d be surprised if you luck did not change.
From your post I'm guessing you got some bad information -it happens.
If you would like to come back and say how you get on I'd be most interested
Croix
