Lost my sense of direction

[moody-_ahhhhh]

underemployed, moody and probably lazy like every other summer :,(, im lost and dont know what to do and dont wanna splurge more money and cant get an internship

[Croix]

Dear Moody-_ahhhhh~

You are right, an internship may well be an appropriate path to future employment, the only hesitation I have is I've seen many students who study full time and work as well, this is a very hard thing to keep up, tiring, stressful and often one cannot do one's best in either role.  I suppose it would depend on your circumstances.

As for my own setbacks in seeking medical help, at first for a long time I thought all the problems stemmed from faults in me, and therefore there was no point, the I thought I could not be one of "those people with mental health issues" due to the stigma attached, finally I had no faith that shrinks could do much anyway.

It was only due to desperation I reached out, and now of course I'm glad I did.

Croix

[moody-_ahhhhh]

truly inspiring, from my end i do have appointments lined up but i feel they are too far away (not by choice) and feel i need interim support

[Croix]

Yes, waiting until the clinician is able to see you can seem a very long time, and assistance is needed now, not when an overloaded system can fit you in.

As an interim measure can I suggest the free Mindspot Clinic, which has self-paced modules in a variety of subjects. I did the one on PTSD and the one on Anxiety and found them helpful. They are backed by Councilors and other professionals and one can have matters explained and help given by them. Mindspot will liaise with your GP if requested.

It's a cooperation between Macquarie University and the Australian Government and has a fair bit of benefit. Obviously it is not as good as face to face or Telehealth, but does fill in the gap.

Hope this helps

Croix.

[moody-_ahhhhh]

thx for reminding me of MindSpot, ive used it before but it might be beneficial for me to reconsult it

[moody-_ahhhhh]

For some reason I still feel in denial even surrounded by people who aren't judgemental about mental health that I do indeed have a mental health disorder, in my case adjustment disorder.

I understand this may not resonate with many people but I wonder if anyone has anecdotal experience of phasing away from denying having an illness, particularly a mental one as they arent clearly visible to others

[Croix]

Dear Moody-_ahhhhh~

I think I can sort of relate. I ended up wiht PTSD, suicidal, with depression and anxiety as well. On top of htat physical symptoms caused by these mental issues. There did not all start at one, one day fine, next day ill, but over a long period, and during that time although my illnesses progressed I did not realise I was ill. 

It may be I did not consider myself the sort of person that became mentally ill, after all we are talking a fair while ago and there was tremendous stigma attached to mental illness and suicidality.

I think in addition a couple of other things. I was entirely ignorant about mental illness, so did not recognize the symptoms for what they were, plus I think I had a form of disassociation, as an example if I had a headache while I might have felt the discomfort I did not realise what was happening and that I had a headache - most illogical and hard to understand, but that's how it was.

My expereince may not be the same as yours as you know intellectually you have mental health issue and I did not.

Croix

[moody-_ahhhhh]

Home feels so isolating with just my mum and I, sister flew back interstate and my late dad passed away.

I feel the only way to have a sense of connection again is if one of our family friend's moved in, but obviously that would be very impractical.

Anyone have any thoughts on this?

[moody-_ahhhhh]

Because of recent bereavement I cannot be accurately assessed for a diagnosis of any mental health disorder (except adjustment disorder which I was diagnosed with last year), but I just know with how things been even if mainly kept to myself that I probably am depressed

I can't snap out of it, I feel weak, I feel incapable