After a long while of being snared in the most toxic "friendship" I've been in for a while, I am finally happy to announce that I am free. It's also been the shortest friendship I've ever had, as this lasted for 9 months. I left him, and I've never felt so free! He is the "friend" that I've posted about before. He kept me snared in that friendship as he kept baiting me into staying such as telling me he'd die if I left him; however as much as I tried to love him platonically or show him any form of care, it'd always backfire horribly. He's crossed the line recently by comparing skin tones between him and I, and saying things such as "Oh I'm whiter. You matter less." Just because my skin tone is slightly more tan compared to his, or he'd generally hate me because I'm Turkish. He'd constantly mock my English (It's not the best but I'm trying!) and my accent as well to the point where I got fed up and left him. He'd constantly call me "confused" or "crazy" because I settled in on being Bisexual. Even in classes he was a distraction and hazard because he put sawdust on his finger and tried to make me sniff it (In wood tech class) and I ignore his antics usually. Along with this he's also try to twist my arm, which I hated a lot because he wouldn't stop at all. He's even posted about me on Tumblr and tried to paint me as someone who is rude and unkind and kept posting about my blog when I wanted to mind my own business and chill out with my other friends from my old school. But no, it wasn't possible with him. Today, I left him completely and am now on my own; and I have never felt this relaxed and calm before. I focused much better and completed all of my work like usual without any distractions. Now I'm feeling more peaceful in school, however there's one problem; which are the girls who usually bully and harass me to my locker for no reason. I don't even get why? I've never said or done anything to them and they keep spreading rumours such as me spreading personal photos of them all over Snapchat. Mind you, I don't even have it! The only social media I have is Spotify, WhatsApp and YouTube as I want to distance myself away from other platforms. They've also called me "weird" or a "psycho" just because I mind my own business. I'm a quiet person who likes a lot of things, and I don't want to fit the norm; or their norm at all. I like being who I am. I love music from the 60s-70s, trip hop (Such as Massive Attack or Björk) and albums that my dad's introduced me to. They find me weird for being myself. I know this might sound ridiculous but I don't get why they pick on someone who is different, or even looks different. I remember when I got a wolf cut they kept saying "Oh she looks like a damn paintbrush" "Eww" just because I got a minor haircut to grow out a bit (It's currently up to my shoulders and I hope to grow it out more so I can make a ponytail :D) along with this they've even followed or cornered me at my lockers because of the rumours they've spread. I remember when I was simply even drawing in class today, I got hit with a ruler on the back because I'm "stupid and weird" to them. I don't care though, because I'm happy with who I am, and even happier now that I've left my toxic "friend". I'm twice as happy with home life, because my parents love taking me to new places such as Brighton or Lorne (I loved the beaches there so much) and they search for new vinyls and CDs together. My dad's pretty cool as he's introduced me to a lot of albums when I was younger, such as Future Past by Duran Duran which we listen to together in the car, and as for my mom she's amazing because she's introduced me to so many TV shows when I was younger, and even today she still does. I'm happy online as well because I have a few online friends and friends from my old school who I still talk to, and along with all that, I'm grateful for Beyond Blue as well. Thank you to anyone who had replied to my old posts as well, as I appreciate it a lot. 💖
