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[SourceShield]

Hello.

I could feel myself slipping.

This weekend...BB, helped me to stay a float.

The posts that I have read, and those that I have commented on, have genuinely helped me to not do anything foolish.

I'll be honest, it's actually taken me a few years to 'trust' BB - thats just me, hyper-vigilance can also sneak up on you in the online-world as well.

Comes from never feeling safe as a kid.

But, this weekend I have shed tears that have washed over me...and have cracked me open, to let more of the light in.

I have shared from my soul...and I have felt genuine connection and care, from complete strangers.

I'm not gonna over-analyse that, because I get that its always easier to hide behind, or more-so, hide in front-of, a computer screen and to write words, words, words, that are just that...words.

BUT - I have laughed and smiled at the pure awesomeness of so many of the peeps that share on BB.

I actually can't express fully how much I feel that BB has SAVED me this weekend.

I know it sounds corny but there you have it...I am incredibly thankful.

I carry myself as a very confident, assertive and intelligent man but sometimes I feel SO pathetic, stupid, worthless and useless that it floors me.

Sometimes, I just dont cope.

Lately, thats how I've been.

The psychological conditioning and programming that I live with...has a lot to answer for.

The autism, and major depressive episodes...break me down, and at the most inopportune of times.

And, I crumble.

BUT - not this weekend.

I feel oddly at ease and peaceful.

And, thats thanks to you guys...all of you.

MuchMuchMuchLove&Gratitude.

Kaitoa Wolfe

[blondguy]

Hey Kaitoa

you are a huge breath of fresh air on the forums

I Love your attitude:-)

you rock my friend

Paul

[geoff]

hi Kaitoa, there have been great replies sent back to you, which they all mean straight from their own heart, and that's what we do on this site, everybody needs to have a voice especially when they don't feel comfortable in talking to a 'friend'or family member only because you feel as though you won't get the support you desperately need, but here you can trust us because you know what we have all been through our own periods where we have been locked up with no one else who understands.
It's so sad that ever the most capable and influential person can be struck down with this illness, not to say that anyone else could also be driven into a blaze of wondering what has just happened to them, asking those questions which you can never find an anwser to.
Why should any of this happen to you, well there maybe a reason which is hard to accept,but most times you don't know why which makes it more confusing.
Once you start to analyse does this mean that you are mislead and go down the wrong path, perhaps an easy path, but you have to go to the core before you are able to solve the problem so that you are able to overcome your illness. Geoff.

[1113]

Hello earth angel, (new nickname)

I get you bro.

Im glad you didn't slip. It hurts. Its amazing to know your not alone. We all here love ya guts.

Six out

[SourceShield]

AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN...

THANK YOU FRIENDS!!!.

Have an awesome day.

Here anytime you need a loving brothers support and care!

MuchMuchMuchLove&Wonderfulness

[Nikkir]

Hi SourceShields,

Thank you for your reply 🙂

Please keep in touch whenever you feel like it !

Best Wishes

Nikkir x

[1113]

Hi bro,

Thankyou, no really THANKYOU.

AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN.

dont forget it. If you slip we will be here to cushion the fall.

Opening up every day more and more

#BBcommunitySourceSixShow

Peace

Six

[SourceShield]

...I wont forget it.

Thanks bro!