Well not really I guess. can't change your appearance but wish there
was but I've put up with myself for over half a century but now and again
my hate me thoughts come in. such is life. I usually fake it until I make it
attitude so no one will know how I feel. not sure why writing this
now guess am having.a self doubt moment.of my direction on life
and struggling with studies. assessment due Tuesday. . guess it's
called life.
I am studying cert IV in mental health so that I can get a job as a peer support worker as I have a lived experience and though had not originally thought of it, a peer support group where I used to go, the field worker suggested I try and go for it. Hence I took the chance. I have not studied for a quite .. a few years and had some anxiety moments in class. I am nearing the end of semester and some subjects have role plays and this can be very daunting for me. Also not sure if I get a placement yet.
Hi rusty girl. [love the name] how r your studies going. good on you for doing cert IV in mental health. u mentioned u r boring .NO NO NO everyone is different . just because u dont conect with everyone or dont go out and take the world by storm does not make u boring .i have very similar happenings to me and i have relised that that is who i am and have learnt to accept it. if you go out some were or even at ur studies and people dont talk to u a lot it is ok. u will find some one to communicate with.yes i do admit that wen i go out and talking to people is a bit on the lean side it does make me wonder a bit but then i realise that it is there lost not mine.i have learnt to listen more than talk these days.anyhoo just a line to say hi. best wishes
Thanks for your reply. I am at the last stages of course with two subjects and a lot of role plays. In a few weeks we will be placed in real locations in order to pass course. nerves and stress will have to be unde4 control.
I have sort of accepted way I am but not totally. that's life.
I am doing a Dip. in Counselling. Similar to you with a lived experience. I decided to do it after talking to a couple of lecturers who knew what I was going through before I started. The other thing about it is that I get to learn more about myself which is helpful for me when I talk to my psychologist.
never accepted myself since 14 onwards. hated being build like my father who had a bug build and 6 foot tall. I am not that tall but otherwise like him. the non acceptance is a continuum. affects all parts of my life. not getting work being isolated and not wanting to go outside and failing bin studies. guess it doesn't matter anymore as hope my life is short
not interested in anything any more. such is life. oh well guess this is just a bad day
rusty
tried all usual positives seeing a shrink but st end of day who cares got will made out and safety plan in action ready when I feel.bad.
