Hi Barefoot29, you sound quite anxious about a few things at the moment.
Sometimes we can feel anxious and depressed when there is a big gap between the person we are, the person we would like to be (what we want), and the person we think we should be (what we think others expect, and what we expect of ourselves).
From your post, it seems you would like to be able to explore your interest in other guys, to ask questions when they come to mind, and to have good friends where you can have open and honest conversations.
The person you think you should be is someone who doesn't ask what you think are "stupid" questions, is scared by your interest in guys, and worries that you will be judged.
The person you are is the guy who is feeling confused while he's trying to work his way between all of that. It is hard, especially if it's new to you and you don't have people around you can trust to talk to.
There are no stupid questions here, mate, so hopefully you can post again and talk some more about what's on your mind. Many of us have been where you are.
