Sick of the hate

[Aussie Platypus]

Having trouble expressing myself but I guess I feel like I’m constantly fighting. Fighting for people to use my pronouns, fighting to be safe, fighting to be loved, fighting to be respected & fighting for kids. I’m a student TA and all the gender bias in schools is suffocating and I’m an adult! I’m also a Scout Leader and the only out gender fluid one that I know about and the gender stereotypes 🤯. I’m tired and I’m so lost, where do I even start! I know that there is at least 2 kids that are struggling with their identity and they aren’t even comfortable enough to talk to me about it. Stupid small minded little town.

[Aussie Platypus]

Thank you Centaured!

tomorrow I’m back in a classroom, I’m trying to ‘put my shields up’ but I’m just a bit exhausted. I think I need like a mantra or something I can think of. I need a role model 🤔

anyway here is to hopefully not been mis gendered too much tomorrow.

[Centaured]

Hey

I hope school went ok today. Do you know anyone personally who is trans/nb to look up to. Or anyone online or even a celebrity that has come out you think is someone to have as a role model.

I myself found that hard. When I first came out I came out as male coz I didn't understand that gender fluid/non binary was a thing and still learning who I was. I didnt have anyone in my life who was trans or queer as I grew up in a small town and surrounded by a lot of religious friends/family. I had to find it within myself to be out and proud which took a while and I eventually discovered I was nb rather that ftm. I had to find the courage to be myself no matter what anyone thought or said. I was me, that was enough and that is all and everything I could be. People just had to accept it, and if they couldn't it was on them not me.

Dont let the hate get you down please. My mantra I found was: this is me, deal with it or leave. It's not something for everyone but for me it was you can't change people, but you can show them the way and they'll chose if they change or not. So I showed them my gender my preference and if they chose not to accept it was on them not me and if they couldn't accept they didn't matter in my my life coz I didn't matter in theirs.

You matter to be seen and heard for you. Find a way to have your voice and identity heard. It takes time but I reckon you'll get there.

[Aussie Platypus]

Sorry for the delay in relying.

school was ok, I gently reminded the teacher who mis gendered me and they apologised. They didn’t mis gender me the rest of the class so that was reassuring that it wasn’t intentional.

I don’t know anyone personally, my mum did mention that she was impressed with Elliot Page’s transition which made me double take. Mum has been a work in progress.

I met my new psyh. Yesterday, she is fascinated in my transition as she has never had a trans client before. I think she’s going to be supportive and helpful.

i Have reread the replies to this post quite a few times to give me the courage to keep fighting so thank you to everyone who has posted!

I think that’s all I have to update atm.

thanks from Platypus!