Am I one of the undateables?

[Gruffudd]

I'm wondering if those little things that make me different also make me undateable. 

I have tried to make a list. There is plenty to put on it, mostly the things that annoy me though.

The big one would be the mental health about half of my life has been spent in depression, but it could be worse, there is the other half, and it is rather predictable, and there are drugs which I complain about even though they work. 

Then there is the sex thing. I never have been all that excited about it and can't figure out wether that was because of being sexually assaulted or if I am just like that. But, I know it is not always central to a relationship. 

All of the usual things are there like old, bald, more fat than I used to be...

Perhaps it is just because I live in the country, but then it wasn't any better in the city.

I can't dance, too awkward and hate loud music.

Perhaps it is because I drive a french car, I do love a Renault. 

[Gruffudd]

Accomodating? There are so many levels to that.

I suspect there are three main parts to my identity that when I don't stay true to I totally misplace the plot. One is being Queer, another is Welsh, and the third Anglican. The reality of the three parts of my identity placed together is that there are members of each community who say and do horrid things towards one or both of the other communities, it is violence and wrong - and with identity it can hurt deep within when one of your own does that. But each part of my identity is what has given me reason to live, without those communities what or who am I? 

I guess to me accomodating means allowing parts of me to be put away sometimes, at other times it means not reacting to what hurts and engaging with the rest, and then sometimes I have to check in to understand if something I am doing or saying is not OK for my partner, family, or friends - I find it challenging to do.