Dear 2675~
Welcome here to the Support Forum. It's a good place to come as you can get other people's views (sometimes a person is too close themselves) and also see how people in similar situations have coped.
If your daughter loves that you and wants to visit you that is a wonderful thing. It is a real pity you feel fragile at times and lash out, wanting to be alone.
I can see that happened in my own life, I have depression and anxiety, and sometimes my mind was so full of the thoughts (all horrible ones) put there by illness that there was no room left in my mind to deal with anyone, irrespective of if I loved them or not. Wanting to be alone due to this caused me to verbally lash out, and try to drive the person away.
I am sure it would have hurt your daughter, and you now regret what happened. I can't judge, I'm not a doctor, however your daughter may be right that you need some assistance, just as I did. If she does come with you to the doctor than not only wil she be able to tell someone else -a good way to get it off one's chest - but will know she has tried in the best way she can to help. It will give your doctor a clearer picture of what is happening to you.
Feeling less fragile and overreacting has to be good. I'm miles better now and maintain good relationships, wihtout that overwheming pressure to be alone.
I realy hope you do have that visit with her and it leads in time to making you feel a lot happier and in control of life.
You know you are welcome here anytime
Croix
