My nearly 18yo son, whilst we were travelling, just left with his dad.
A letter, saying he needs to go.
His dad and I separated just after he was born, due to being physically abused by his dad before he was born. I left few weeks after.
It's been a rollercoaster ride of abuse verbal, stalking, trying to run me over, putting sand in my fuel tank...etc etc
When my son was 14, he came to me and said he didn't want to see his dad. His dad took him to a party and wouldn't leave, so told him to sit in the car whilst he partied. Hours went by and his dad drove home drunk with him in the car.
His dad previously lost his licence for life for drink driving and was on drugs.
I took him to a physiologist to talk about what was happening and his feelings. She stated in family court, that my son see his dad if he chooses. Which family court ordered.
Now 4 years down the track, the last two years being hard as I got really sick and he looked after me.
He now blames me for not seeing his dad. For home schooling him, even though at the time it was what we wanted and enjoyed doing up until the last year.
For not letting him have a normal childhood, he feels he missed out.
This all, feels like it's coming out of his dad's mouth, not his.
He says his been pretending to be happy, that he always did what I wanted. Even though I always made a point of saying we make decisions together..we are a team.
He says, he doesn't like where his life is going with me. So choose to contact his dad and leave.
I feel so heart broken, sad, angry because I did my best, miss him so much. Lost. Broken. I have goals and dreams I try to focus on, but my heart won't let me move on.
He doesn't talk to me.
His dad always said, I will take him away from you...he has done his promise.
Part of me wants to contact my son and the other part says give it time, he will see how his dad is again.
Just hard, I don't know how to move forward.
I have no family. My friends have their own issues.
Trying to stay positive..
