Hi, Idk whats wrong with me I don't know why I am like this. I really wish I wasn't. I am currently a college student yr11-yr12 so it has definetly been stressful haha but I dont know why I am like this it actually pains me why cant I be normal. I have a loving family, an older sister, mum and dad and they are the best but we always have fights, like normal families but I always cry. I always cry at little arguments, I always have a hint of breaking down in my voice at big arguments and am asked why I am crying. I don't know if I have anger issues but I probably do? I get irritated at very little things and complain without actually thinking how it effects the person, or when its not the correct time like once my sister, my older one was wearing my earrings and I got instantly mad, this is when the door was open and she was holding my dog bc he always trys to run out and I asked her can you take it off, completely ignoring the fact that she was holding my dog? and now i was told about it by my mum how i acted which I understand now but I get irritated at so many little things and dont think in the moment, then later I do all alone in my bed and get embarrased. Why did I do that. I feel like im always a drama queen or thats how I'm painted as, like a villain in the house and i understand I really wish I wouldnt. I dont know if its either all this built up resentment, I always cry I wish I didnt, im supposed to be mature. I know I am like this but I don't have anyone to talk to when my feelings are hurt or I could just ball out to and hopefully someone will answer me, or even a sorry in cases when its not my fault, little things hurt. I am really lonely. Most of my feelings and arguments are like this at home, bc when we get into my arguments its always "you always do this and that you never did this" and I start breaking down, Afterwards that none of my family members talk to me or wants to resolve with me. I know im like this once again but I feel like I haven;t got the mental help or genuine help to be heard and help me deal with these feelings (etc crying, arguing and complaining a lot). I don't know if its bc i'm the youngest sibling? I sometimes feel like im a clown embarrased just for complaining about something little or even no one taking me seriously bc im the youngest, and when I complain for something little, I understand it later but its embarrasing, or when I complain for something or cry i feel embarrased. I've even asked gpt if Im valid help
