Scared

[melia74]

I will try to explain in simple and quick 

Partner and I have been taking drugs for 15 years recreational use. For the past 10 years I've been subjected to constant cheating accusations

Cameras in the house watching him and putting him on show when we have sex.

I have signed my life away to someone and when I don't want to go near him as he has made me feel discussing he says they are telling me what to do.

I live this man but it's becoming to much for my mental state and.my daughters.

He knows I don't want to take drugs anymore and he doesn't care as long as he gets his sex at the end of the day. 

If I'm with my daughter he gets pissed off as I've not made time for him. 

The list goes on

He has sometimes made me lye naked so he can look over my body to see if there is any evidence of something.

I'm tired and scared. 

[Croix]

Dear Melia74~

I'd like to give you a welcome here to the Support Forum. I'm glad you came as you life sounds terrible and things really do need to be made better.

To put it bluntly you are being abused. To go in fear of your partner, made to take drugs, made to have sex, and distrusted are all things that should never happen. On top of all that he sounds a terrible influence on your daughter. How can she grow up to want a normal happy partnership if she never has an example.

Can I suggest you have a talk wiht the experts in the area of abuse and see what they suggest. They are 1800RESPECT (1800 737 732) and can give advice . They are a 24/7 confidential information, counselling and support service.

You have done a really excellent first step in realizing how bad things have become and started to take action

I hope to hear from you some more

Croix