Not sure how much longer this can go on for
Hi Nervous, welcome here.
Before I get to some possible remedies allow me to state the obvious.
You have just manned up to some errors. You cheated on your girlfriend and that act is often a permanent reason to be apart. You miss your daughter but you live apart from her surroundings.
We are responsible for many things in our lives. We also have the ability to change course and at times redeem ourselves. We can sometimes have opportunity to "do the best thing" for someone else we love.
In my opinion I would seize this period in your life to help out the child that doesn't have you around. Consider moving to where she lives and do that for her. It might not work out but trying to provide a parent to her, her dad, would and should go down as an honourable thing to do.
They say "life is what you make it" and you like many has made some errors. Time to make the rest of your life full of merit.
I think you know this. I also think you have it in you to succeed. Your post is a good start to wipe the slate clean.
hi Nervous, we all make mistakes, sometimes we don't want to, but misjudgements, underestimating or perhaps forced errors is what we have to expect, whether we like it or not.
What ever was the reason you and your wife divorced/separated is of no consequence, however you broke the trust of your girlfriend and had a fling with another person, so you're been struggling for 4 years, that's too long and really long enough, so you have to get yourself back on line and start again.
Your wife dislikes you, but that's now history, and the only affiliation is your daughter, but that's OK you can rebuild your relationship with her, even if she lives interstate, or as Tony has said you could move much closer to her.
You know we struggle through days not wanting to make any contact with other people, and that's exactly how depression operates, it controls us, so what we have to do is to break any link to this illness that is keeping us in depression, easier said than done, I know.
One good reason why you haven't found another girlfriend is because you're not allowing yourself to be free, and it is hard when you are depressed, so you have to begin treatment, it is hard and difficult to start with, but when you feel the way you are now, you can't go any lower.
Your doctor will understand that you are suffering from depression, and there's no way you can disguise it from him/her, they are trained and can tell by looking at your eyes, so please can I suggest you contct him/her. Geoff.