I’m one of 4 Sisters. I am 37. I was 22 when I left home and I decided to venture out and go on my own. My other two older and one younger sister still had nothing todo with my mum. I can’t explain my mother’s abuse. I’ve always moved around and bounced around rental homes and Schools as a kid. But when I lived with my Great Dad when I was 14 I became a Great Girl, happier. And I started to make friends. I wasn’t over weight and eating to escape anymore. But I still lacked in the skills to communicate with my dad and dress and act a certain way. Which turned my dad to verbally abuse me. My instant go to is to go. Run away. And I was 15 and my mum only lived 1 Suburb away And yes I did go back home. My dad cried and he found me at mums where he said she’ll kick me out when I turn 16. We Faught. Well low, and behold. SHE Kicked me out. I went to go live as I had no choice with my first boyfriend we broke up at 17. Due to my broken families abuse resulting in us fighting. I then met another guy who my Mother tried to befriend and toxicly ruin our relationship. I’ve never commited to any one man because I’ve been searching for comfort. When I was 21 I was kicked out by her again and 20 and 22 kicked out again. When I was 22. I met a man who was 15 years older than me. He beat me up every two weeks for the 3 and a half years. the police said it was a toxic and dysfunctional relationship. And also one with My Mother as well. it’s Abuse, we’ve all identified it as abuse. Not physical. Well not all the time. …
My Mother - is 61.
she drinks alcohol during the day and doesn’t change when we ask her too. I’m 38 soon. She fails and doesn’t respect Boundaries, She, cries and carries on she constantly sits there and blames people and others for her shit and her Life, her mistakes. We’ve all grown up now we’re all our own person and we have our own responsibilities. However, she hates that about us. If she gets a chance of any information she’ll toxically and psychologically Mess us Up and other people around her. When confronting her, She’ll scream at you. I decided 15 Years ago when I was with Andrew . That I wouldn’t let her affect my Life AND Hurt ME. However, Andrew went to The remand centre for breaching his IVO assaulting me the Police had done that. I met another guy online I told him I wanted to move forward with my Life but he constantly told me to go home and called me insults / names. the constant go back to and need for her home is still there. But I didn’t want to go.
I don’t want to re establish a relationship my mum. with her. And she needs to learn to leave me alone and except that.
my other two sisters don’t see her. But my 43 Year old sister has had her living with her 8 Years ago. To put her up. But she and My Mum don’t talk now. My sisters trying to convince me that I need Mum which I don’t. . I just want to be left alone to life My Life. Whether I’m struggling or not I still have the entitlement to live my life.
im posting this , - because im torn. I’ve met another guy in the last 3 Years or just under that’s abused me. He’s used my resilience strong willed nature about me so to speak and he doesn’t understand or see that I’ve been through a lot of abuse. I was a strong resilient girl when I first met him. And now he’s brought me down. It’s frustrating and sickening. My mother is encouraging it and doesn’t understand my type2 Diabetes from lack of nutrition and My Feelings. She’s toxic beyond non supportive. But she doesn’t want to see me get better. I can’t put it into words how I feel or acknowledge it but I all I know is that im crying.
