Thanks for reply. I know you will find strength. I worry it will be harder while you are physically available for him to feed on your vulnerabilities. I doubt he will give you space.
As for failure, I Googled failure quotes. There are many for inspiration. I have taken the liberty of pasting a few to spur you on.... (Apologies for the overload, there are so many that I got carried away myself, but I hope at least one might resonate and help you to see things in a different light)
Failure isn't fatal, but failure to change might be.
Everything you want is on the other side of fear.
Failure is delay, not defeat. It is a temporary detour, not a dead end. Failure is something we can avoid only by saying nothing, doing nothing, and being nothing.
When you take risks you learn that there will be times when you succeed and there will be times when you fail, and both are equally important.
Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts.
The only real mistake is the one from which we learn nothing.
Failures are finger posts on the road to achievement.
Failure is part of the process of success. People who avoid failure also avoid success.
Every adversity, every failure, every heartache carries with it the seed of an equal or greater benefit.
You build on failure. You use it as a stepping stone. Close the door on the past. You don't try to forget the mistakes, but you don't dwell on it. You don't let it have any of your energy, or any of your time, or any of your space.
No human ever became interesting by not failing. The more you fail and recover and improve, the better you are as a person. Ever meet someone who’s always had everything work out for them with zero struggle? They usually have the depth of a puddle. Or they don’t exist.
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I hope you can find a place where you mind and you heart both agree on the best way forward. Decisions like this are never easy. I lived in Perth for 5 years for study, coming from SA. I know what it's like to feel like a fish out of water over there. It's a long way away.
Can you picture where you'll be in 1 or 2 or 5 years depending on what you choose to do now? Maybe that will make things clearer. I might even try that myself!! I'm at a similar crossroad atm. I have to tell myself that a decision needn't be fatal, I might get it wrong, but there is will always be another fork in the road ahead, I guess. I'm a master procrastinator, sigh.
Time for zzzs. Goodnight. Leex
