Dear Vikjeet~
I'd like to welcome you here to the forum. By the sound of it your family situation is in a very bad way with your wife and twins overseas and a breakdown in communications together with arguments and her isolating the twins from you..
May I ask if you have other children living with you and you are afraid your wife will try to get custody? Of course this is just a guess as I'm not that good at understanding from your post if that is the case. I'd think any such action would be hard for her to do as she is not in this country - apart from anything else. A chat with a lawyer who specialized in family law might be a good idea so you can take any necessary precautions.
You said that you have become so stressed about this situation you were "thinking about some nasty stuff" which may mean you
can't see any way out and are starting think of taking your life. My apologies if I have misunderstood.
I have been in the situation where I was
overwhelmed and tried to take my life. I'm now glad I was unable to complete this action and looking back found that while the situation I was in was not good at all it was my ability to cope by myself that had let me down.
It was amazing how having support made a difference and gave me some hope. This came partly from counseling by a psychiatrist who helped the
suicidal thoughts lessen together with giving me a more hopeful perspective and partly by my family.
As a result I'd suggest seeing your GP and getting some counseling arranged. If it worked for me I'd say there is a good chance it would work for you. If you are having
suicidal thoughts please do mention them, something I found hard to do at first.
Would you like to say if you have any family or friends to support you? You may be reluctant to tell them about this however trying to go it alone makes things much harder.
This is probably the most difficult thing you will ever have to face in your life and I hope things do get better quickly.
In the meantime if you, like me, become
overwhelmed please contact either
our counselors or LifeLine on 13 11 14, both are available 24/7. A competent and friendly voice will help take some of the stress off and be a comfort.
You are always welcome here anytime.
Croix
