Hey... remember the "friend" who I'd mentioned before? Well they've become much worse and it's been two whole months since I left them. Honestly a big relief. No more hitting, cussing, or MacBook damage, and I'm finally free to like whatever I want (Because they'd constantly whine about how they don't like a certain game/show/comic/etc and say it's bad), or do whatever. However today hit me in the heart like a sledge hammer. So I was told by a teacher at school to apologise to them because I left them, so I sighed and reluctantly accepted it; stayed up until 2AM to decorate the envelope for the letter I'm writing, and writing the actual letter itself. I swear on my heart, I had poured out all my grief and apology for them (Even though I felt like I didn't really do anything to them, however I'm not sure anymore because they've made me feel guilty enough.) and was in tears writing this. Torn between not wanting to do this, and doing this for the sake of not looking like a massive jerk, I finish my letter and give it to the teacher on Tuesday so they can give it to them. Today, I asked the teacher if they read it; to which the teacher responded with an approval of them reading it. Fast forward to science class, I'm sitting with my other friend who's been for me through thick and thin, and we were browsing together on the internet for terrarium ideas (Since we were done) and giggled as we remembered an old joke that was between us. However, just as we were finished talking, one of my classmates (Who is close with that friend I left) gave me a note and I unfolded it with shaky hands. Indeed I knew it, it was a highly negative, whiny, and aggressive note about how I somehow was rude to them and that I apparently didn't put any effort into my letter, which I was then informed that they didn't want to talk to me that I made them intimidated. Apparently they thought that I found me "betraying" them funny and they said "If it is a joke, it really isn't. I'm fed up with your bs." That really hit me. I felt extremely hurt and betrayed myself, as they were supposed to apologise as well, however they just wrote this aggressive note in one session, which made me feel empty, and extremely anxious. I immediately walked out of the classroom and went to see wellbeing, who didn't do much as all teachers side with them since they're a teacher's kid. I can't do it anymore at this school and I feel unheard and lost. They've told everyone I left them and everyone hates me now.
