Hi, I am 36 and married with children.
a few months ago I went out and watched a band play. I instantly thought the singer was hot and I found out his name and started messaging him. We messaged for 3 months and he made promises that we would meet up but then it was all about him being busy and it’s gigs. On the weekend I went to watch him play again and he caught up for a short while afterwards and kissed. Since this all started I haven’t been able to stop thinking about him. I hardly know him and I stalk him on social media all the time. He doesn’t ask me anything about me so I’m assuming I’m more into him. He said we will catch up again but deep down I know it’s just going to drag out and I will have to make the effort for it to happen.
the thought of it not happening again is making me feel crazy. I literally feel crazy. I can’t eat, sleep and I’m crying all the time. I can’t concentrate at work and I’m scared to be alone.
please tell me how I can stop feeling like this. I love my husband. My husband cheated on me about 3 years ago so maybe that’s why I’m doing it. I don’t feel that attracted to my husband.
