Broken

[Tina77]

I'm tired. I'm stressed. I'm broken inside and out. Noone to turn to. Just angry. Thoughts of what if. 

[Tina77]

I try to hold it in. I think maybe I'm overacting or why am I complaining or feel this way..stop being selfish. So I go back to locking things up, until today. Everything piling up..emotions, things to do..emotionally and physically in pain. Needs of everyone else..but not mine...keep thinking don't be selfish, that's your job..so lock up again. Some days I think maybe if I end up in hospital I can rest..maybe, maybe not..don't be selfish..it's normal...is it

[Sophie_M]

Hey Tina77,

It sounds like you're in a really difficult spot right now, but we're glad you've taken this step to reach out for support. Intrusive thoughts can be really confronting but are normal when you're under a lot of stress and not getting the support you need.

Along with this community our counsellors on the Support Service would love to hear from you, they're available on 1300 22 46 36 or you can chat with one online here.

 

[Tina77]

Tired of being tired. Tired of hurting with no voice and not being heard or seen in this house. Tired of having to live up to expectations. Tired of trying. Tired of living at times. 

[HelpNeeded]

Hey Tina,

I feel like I’m in a similar situation. I feel like everything rests on my shoulders all the time and that I have to be the anchor for everyone. I have to be the organised one, the one that appears to have it all under control. But realistically under the surface I’m a mess. I try to be what everyone needs but after a while of bottling up I explode. I’m now the asshole and hate myself for it. I go into damage control knowing full well that it’ll happen again. The fuse gets shorter and shorter each time. I wish I had advice to give here but I guess I just wanted you to know that you’re not alone in the way you feel.