Am I Normal???
It's been over a year now Ive been seperated and Im still mourning the loss of my wife and family.
After finding out she has cheated on me during my marriage and getting engaged straight after we seperated (less than 2 weeks) has been heartbreaking. She has subsequently broken up with the guy and hooked up with someone else seven weeks after that. In all this my kids had 3 father figures in less than 12 months and have been directed to lie and hide information to her parents and family.
I have been told by her dad im the perpretrator and she is the victim of the situation, which really hurts.
My family was my world and now they live an hour away, I feel lost and directionless. I still wake up and find they are not there, the pain kills me and I can physically feel the weight of it each day, where she has just left all this behind and got on with her life.
The laws seem to favour her so much and even though she has done everything to break us up, I still have to fight to see my kids.
Now I have to give up my entire life to move closer to them or I will miss out on my kids growing up. Im so sad about everything right now. Even her family (except her parents and a sibling) can see she has made a huge mistake and me and my kids will pay for it.
There are no winners in this other than her as she plays the victim card, but has done all this stuff during the marriage.
I feel so ripped off.....
Hi again. Boy, I can relate to your situation. It wasn't exactly the same but the pain was there.
Consider this, my kids 7and 4yo were with their mother when I left the family home following abuse from my then wife over an 11 year period. I knew for my kids to survive, they needed to remain in the family home, their school and for me to see them every second weekend and extra time on school holidays which happened.
Battling mental health issues made things really hard. I would resign form work only to find the child support agency kept billing me for maintenance. I forced myself to return to work and it was agonising.. a real struggle. My then first wife was cruel and evasive, did not respect my fatherhood and when speaking to her about the kids during the swap over she replied to me in a demeaning manner. She tried everything in her power to deny me attending parent and teacher nights and so on. She was revengeful and is to this day 20 years later.
My eldest daughter came to live with me at 12yo and stayed. Her mother disowned her for this !!. My youngest now 23yo visited me a few weeks ago after years of absence. Totally brainwashed I'm dubious I'll ever have her as a full daughter. It's like her mother visited me!. An echo of her.
To jump over this hoop of attitude by our ex spouses we need to grow enough confidence to endorse in our minds what is right and wrong. We feel guilt that we did wrong when we did no wrong or little wrong. We get comments from others, usually family of our ex spouses that points the finger at us, often due to our ex's manipulating the facts. so what can you do?
The best approach is to focus only on your children and your new life. Her family are not your friends.Seek out all avenues to get your entitlement of visitations for you and your children. As heartbreaking as it is to pick up and drop off your children remember- its for them to. Any comments that come back to you that is not true (often from the kids) just ignore. What goes around comes around...your kids will remember and face their mother in years to come.Don't say anything bad about their mother to them. Seek legal council to make sure you get your entitled visits through the family court.
In 1996 I lived in a tiny caravan.Everyday I'd stare into a mirror and tell myself "you are a good man Tony and deserve a good life".
It takes endurance but its worth every drop of sweat and your kids will love you for it.
Hi there. Everything Tony says is so right. Unfortunately whoever emotionally supports her will do so regardless of what the truth is because, quite simply, they don't want to believe anything to the contrary. I feel so sorry for you, but at the same time (and this is going to hurt), I feel you are well rid of her. She sounds very unstable, in and out of engagements. Try and concentrate on giving your kids as normal a life as possible. Eventually she will trip herself up and when she does, those kids are going to need you. Was she a good mum? With regards to the way the law works, they don't deal in emotions, just facts. If they dealt in emotions, there would be more people punished for the wrong they do everyday. Try not to involve her sibling in your arguments, I realize the temptation is there, but doing that will cause more agro than ever. The less contact you have with her, till you're strong enough emotionally, the better. Any dealings should be handled through solicitors. I realize how costly they are, but if you adhere to what you're advised, you will come out on top. Try not to bad mouth her to your kids, let her put you down. Whatever action you decide to take, think about it first. Discuss anything you're not sure of with your lawyer. I know it hurts the way she badmouths you, but each time she does, if you don't retaliate, she loses.
Remember BB is here if you need to 'blow off' steam.
My mother was a very vindictive woman. She left my father for his friend when I was four years old. She thought I would not understand it or remember what was going on at the time and she spent the majority of my life trying to brainwash me into believing my father was a horrible person.
She abused him (and continues to abuse him 20 years later!) every time she speaks to him and she had physically abused and assaulted him also.
I was young but I saw through what she was trying to do because she lied to EVERYONE! my dad never gave up on me. He fought to see me.
when my mother moved us an hour away my dad travelled every weekend up and back to see me.
by the sounds of it your ex has lost her marbles & belive me your children need a good role model. They need both their parents in their life despite what they say (or what their mother tells them to say).
Fight for them & never give up.
if my dad did not fight to keep his relationship with me alive I honestly don't know what my life would have been like.
your children are probably confused and scared but they love you & need you.
As a father you have every right to see your children& be a part of their life.
wether your ex knows it or not your children want & need you there & she has no right to deny you or your children that.
You should feel 'ripped' off...because you were...
I feel for you and what you are going through Wanted. I used to cry my heart out when I couldn't see my daughter,even with a court order...however I have some great news for you! Its a myth that the Family Law Court is pro female...they arent anymore
I succeeded in getting 'contact' with my daughter and like Tony I not only lived in a 'caravan' but a tiny 'bubble' until I eventually succeeded (not won...nobody wins) in having my court order enforced with the threat to my ex may 'go to prison' if she failed to provide the 'contact' the court order stated.
Pipsy means well but you already knew that venting your thoughts through your kids is a no go zone...
All dealings with your ex dont have to be through a solicitor....Thats also a myth..You dont!
I lived 45 minutes away from my baby daughter....please dont get up and move....haste makes waste...you will be able to see your kids..
Reading your post was identical to my experience on this one......
Not here to Preach just share the same situation
Here if you need us 'wanted'
Good Morning Wanted and Pipsy
I hope you are okay wanted...this is an awful and difficult time for you...If you are up to it...let us know how you are going 🙂
You are spot on Pipsy....considering wanteds wife being the way she is your are absolutely right there...I will make sure my glasses are on next time.....and thankyou too (Hugs) I hope your day is good to you Pipsy
Hi All, thanks for your input. I still find it hard to move on cause my family was everything to me. I now have to rediscover myself after putting myself last all the time.
Her new man seems very selfish and self absorbed like her, I wonder how thats going to go???
I still struggle to see a better future for me cause I never thought I would miss seeing my kids growing up.
It is very normal to still think about your ex and the man she is with. This is a person you loved and it takes time to move on.
I used to think a lot about my ex wife's defacto, he was a really nice guy. Then one day about 3 years after he married her, he stopped me leaving after I dropped my kids off. He asked me "I have some problems and I thought I'd ask you a few questions" (my ex was at work). I said "don't tell me....she sleeps in till the afternoon, wont help with the housework and you cant get her out of bed to get her to work"? (they worked a the same employer). He was stunned. "That's right" he said. I then proceeded to tell him that this laziness was the main reason my marriage failed and earlier on in my marriage I had two toddlers that I tended to with nappy changing and looking after that she failed to do regularly. My ex didn't work then and wanted to be the homemaker. I would have swapped roles in an eye blink.
So karma does happen. To top that off their marriage failed and a third man entered her life and that failed. But you'd think that people with a poor track record would realise they are a big part of the problem but no...often humans cant look in the mirror- there is no insight into their own inconsiderate behaviour.
You have few cards to play. The trump card is making a life for yourself that will be filled with activity (I built my own house for example) which diverts your mind to productive creative things. You will still think about your kids but you might, like I did, have a sad few minutes then jump back into your project. An idle mind isn't good.
You should withdraw yourself from more internal harm of reminding yourself of what you've missed out on. As long as you know you did little wrong.
Picture this- my eldest daughter at 12yo had her shoes stolen at school while doing sports. She told her mother. Her mother made her wear big boots to school. A few days later my daughter rang me and cried that she was bullied at school for the boots. I bought her new shoes and delivered them to her at school (1 hour away). A week later on a visit to my place she asked if she could live with me. She did. Her mother never forgave her and eventually disowned her. My now wife of 5 years is called mum. I will walk this daughter down the aisle next year.
My youngest has little contact with me. She turned up here 4 weeks ago. She is brainwashed. I'll give her time.
Sometimes we have no choice but wait.