Hi EmPTSD, welcome
So glad you wrote in. Labels, lets talk about "labels". Yes they as hurtful, actually can be humiliating. So why do we have them? Because it is a "direct" description and there is sound reason for people in authority to be direct. The reason is often when people get referred to others say- counselors or doctors for therapy or examinations. If such a description is not used and it is substituted for another more softened label, then it can be misconstrued easily.
It isn't unlike bipolar 1 and bipolar 2. Bipolar 2 although just as serious has patients that are aware of their illness and its ramifications, bipolar 1 is often for those far less aware of their behavior which is sometimes excessive and odd.
But the main issue here with yourself is the word. The old saying sticks and stones....applies. We can get fixated with labels and while I understand that I have trained my mind to not concern myself about such labels.
In terms of the assault and its seriousness, you are fully justified in how it has affected your life. Please, never feel guilty about this- you feel what you feel and the extent of your reactions has zero to do what others feel. We often get he comment "just get over it" with depression and it is really hurtful when we don't have that capacity.
So in summary- the terms of "rape victim/survivor is primarily for the purpose of professional health and law people to describe victims accurately so they do not misunderstand what you have endured and therefore downplay it. It is accurate and direct and in law and medical terms that is needed.
Also you have every right to feel upset, depressed, PTSD symptoms and mental anguish from your ordeal.
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Regards and I hope you feel better soon
TonyWK
