I have posttraumatic stress disorder.i've gone through extreme case of posttraumatic stress for 13 long years and 38 female and I'm constantly feeling hot in my face behind my eyes and in my forehead with every breath I take I feel like people are about to copy me judge and threaten me I feel like this when I'm alone. Like right at this moment, I am writing this, moving My leg constantly jittering because when I’m not on my phone or watching TV or talking to somebody and all comes flooding back.
It’s hard to talk to helpline sometimes like tonight as they sometimes don’t understand my communicative skills i.e. trying to describe how much hell in pain and suffering I’m going through chronically at the very moment. I hate illegal drugs due to the fact that my abusive ex partner of 13 years ago used to take them with beer I’ve also been told that my mum used to go around when I was a younger saying to my friends, friends, parents, etc., that her daughter me doesn’t take drugs and that I’m a frigid. Alcohol requires me to get up and go out and get it so that in itself will give me such bad anxiety, but I’ll probably end up getting reflux and regret getting the alcohol. I haven’t had a job since this trauma started. I was a disability support worker, and aged care in home worker and I got verbally abused constantly and emotionally attacked through emails. I haven’t been able to hold a job since so now I’m on government benefits. I get laughed at by the people who I thought I could trust To help me through this.
My dad he’s young. He’s only 56 thinks this will go away if I look after my physical health, fix my physical health And become social lose weight.
as my parents have divorced my mother decided to choose her relationship over us Girls and she kicked me out after school of home one day she was moving house and I had had trauma and depression since and I decided to ignore my dad and cling to my relationships
