Manipulating Narcissistic Controlling Mother

[Fighting_Daughter]

I'm trying not to break from my Mother destroying my passions, life and sanity. I've been hiding in my room for 4 months now I cut her off ever since she put stuff in my food to make me sick , she trashed my room four days straight when i was studying and working on my First ever Blog to express myself and share my work that i have been doing for 17 years. She wouldn't let me sleep and i lost my job.

I'm still in my room and she got some of the people at my work that i just started 4 days ago to make it hard for me and i already was trying to cope after finding out my mother hates me but wants to control me because i can give her stability. I ended up quitting and that's how i found out she was involved. I'm currently waiting for a session available for counselling but I don't have three months left of fighting in me. I have to pay rent next week and i need a job ASAP my mind is fighting with me and my fears are beating me but im trying so hard not to let her win.

She got someone else to give me an Album called The Family Jewel by Marina Through...... I thought she finally wanted to love me and say sorry and stop lying to me and tell me she misses me and regrets what she did but NO!!!! IT WAS THE MOST EVIL SONGS TO GIVE TO YOUR CHILD.

[Sophie_M]

Dear Fighting Daughter

Welcome to our friendly online community, we are so glad you decided to join us here. We know it can be hard to create your first thread, so thank you for having the courage. 

We are so sorry to hear about your experiences with your mother. What you have described sounds really awful. We're glad to hear that you have booked in with a counsellor, but we are sorry to hear about the wait involved. In the meantime, it might be a good idea for you to contact 1800RESPECT, if you haven't already. They offer 24/7 confidential information, counselling and support for people impacted by sexual assault, domestic or family violence and abuse. The lovely supportive counsellors have a lot of experience offering advice and support to anyone who has been through trauma like this. You can contact them on 1800 737 732 or visit  https://www.1800respect.org.au/

Please know that you've come to a safe, non-judgemental space to talk things through and our community is here to offer as much support, advice and conversation as you need. 

We're sure that a lot of our community members will relate to these feelings and hopefully, some of them will pop by to offer you words of wisdom and kindness.

Please continue to post as you see fit. We're always around to listen and offer support. 

[Petal22]

Hi Fighting Daughter,

Wellcome to our forums!

Im sorry this is happening to you it sounds horrible.

Is it possible for you to move out of were you live if it’s with your Mum?

Its great to hear to are going to see a councillor?

Here to chat

[tranzcrybe]

Four months is a long time - have you been preparing your own meals ever since?
Writing a blog is a useful catharsis which can help you to move on with your life, and 17 years sounds like a major investment of your thoughts and time. Would I be correct in assuming that your mother may factor heavily in the subject matter?
Although I could probably guess when, do you remember how the relationship changed between you and your mother?
This can be a good place to get it off your chest while receiving support and input from others.