Hey people some time has passed since i recently posted her on this forum. things have changed as i have learned about things im going through
My mother and step father are violent narcissists and due to that i am experiencing PTSD.. due to my symptoms
i have come out to some good online friends and my real life system that i am Bi-Gender switch from Male to Female and backwards.
due to the fact i require my family for help with my illnesses.. and due to there constant abuse i have learned helplessness.. meaning i cannot leave until i hit a breaking point and that it ties in with trauma bonding.
my health is getting worse but i am seeing a physiotherapist for my Narrowing of the spine and Body Facet Joint Arthritus [Hands, Feet, Knees, Back]
i have generalized anxiety disorder [managing well without meds] and Clinical Depression which if i get fully looked into i fear may be bi-polar.
i am currently battling my health being immune compromised has its issues, Serious Chronic Fatigue, vital organs under attack + more
my next step is to get the courage to get over my fear of being forever institutionalized and seeing a mental therapist.
i am ... somewhat happy.. and happy to answer anyquestions .. i feel even though i get depressed.. sometimes dysphoric when my mental gender is female i am doing good and slowly enjoying life again..
unfortunately i have been slammed with a DSP Esat as i have had issues getting work in two years.. people love me they do a work trial with me for 4 weeks under the false hope of employment then BAM! sorry just no money to hire you atm, keep in touch bye! rinse and repeat..
anyway.. 🙂 cheerio
