I have just started seeing a specialist trauma psychologist. I finally feel i have someone i can trust and who can actually help.
Just recently i had an admission to hospital as i was totally suicidal and needed help to stop me acting on my thoughts. When first admitted to my local hospital, the specialist psych nurse was very supportive and even suggested i may need a stay in a psych hospital a few hours away.
My local mental health support case manager was removed from my case and i was told that could no longer help me in the community as i was not responding like they thought i should. This was really hard to take. But i was angry and decided that was not helpful. Even the trauma psych said it was not right and i would continue to need community support as she was going on leave after the Christmas break and she was not local and only in town a few days a week.
My stay in hospital was helpful until the local mental health team got involved again and without asking how i was, some chick i had only ever met once suggested i go home as i had been there for 2 nights and that was fair enough. I was very upset and told her to get lost. Still i packed my bag and told the ward nursing staff that i was going home. They were concerned for my safety and advised me not to leave and i pointed out to them that the, so called professional told me to go.
So they rang the police and not long after i had made the long walk home, the police were at my door and wouldn't leave me alone. i had an appointment organised with the trauma psych and the police rang her and took me their.
She took me to the hospital with the idea of advocating for me with the local mental health team. They would not respond to her calls. They also wouldn't give my daughter the name of the mental health person who told me to leave the hospital.
Anyway i was once again admitted and told in emergency they were getting a nurse in to special care for me The next day the mental health team turn up again and tell me i am not being admitted to a psych hospital as they don't think i needit.
They also wrote in my notes that i could go home. the dr came and they said i couldn't leave. I stated that i no longer felt safe their and had to get out. Soi went home with my daughter. she let me stay at my house alone with my animals. Now i have nowhere safe to go for help.he local mental health team ruined any chance of further assistance and ignored my pleas for help when i was most vulnerable.
