Hi everyone,
I am really hoping someone can offer me some support/advice or share personal experiences on Intrusive Thoughts and anxiety. I will give you some background information.
I am a 17 year old girl.
I am suffering from PTSD from a previous surgery and ongoing feelings of un wellness with no medical reason for. I am recently having a lot of panic attacks , particularly at night time. I constantly feel like I am battling a mean demon version of myself in my head. I am not having self harm thoughts instead quite the opposite. I have a severe fear of death that has come from anxiety and my precious experiences of trauma. I often have images of a version of myself like a twin who is mean and out to hurt me and make me feel scared and fearful. I cannot get those thoughts out of my head such as this frightening version of myself, images of death, hospitals etc. I am really trying to find ways to cope but instead keep suffering with panic and anxiety attacks quite severely I become so scared
I am also suffering with disassociated feelings. A feeling like i am not alive and am not living in my body instead watching the world around me. I am responsive however and I get on with things. I cannot seem to get this feeling to go away, If anyone has any tips on treating disassociation please share.
I have come to the online forum on the lookout for some advice , people to share their experiences on how they cope or how they are dealing with things. I am hoping to find people to reassure me I am not alone and we are in this together.
I look forward to hearing from everyone.
