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I need strength to leave my abusive, controlling boyfriend
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On the outside everyone thinks we are the perfect couple. Both young (21), blonde, outgoing, ambitious, passionate. Behind closed doors, I can't do anything right. My boyfriend and I both have depression. He is addicted to weed. This makes him veeeery paranoid. He goes through my phone to check who I'm texting. He texts me 10 times a day to find out what I'm doing. He tells me who I'm allowed to see, and when I'm allowed to see them. He calls me names . He's hit me before. He said he never would again but... I can't believe him. He owes me over $1000. He doesn't let me sleep at night unless he is tired, and I am forced to wake up when he does. He forced me to move into his parents house, knowing I despise them. I now dread coming home every day, because in an argument they said to my face I wasn't welcome there. He says if I move out, he will never speak to me again.
I've always been the strong, confident, smiling girl who was surrounded by friends at all times. I was known for my smile!!! Now, I don't even know my smile. I met him when I started living in a new country. Due to his controlling behaviour, I haven't made many friends here. Now, I know I need to leave and get my life back. I feel like I'm wasting the best years of my life with someone who brings more tears than smiles. When he is in a good mood he is perfect, but it's just there isn't any good moods anymore. I am sick of being bullied, and I want my confidence back! I just want to be me again.
Once October comes, I am definitely leaving Australia. I am only worried about how I get through the months before then... Who has left an abusive relationship, especially while struggling with depression and loneliness prior to leaving? I know what I need to do... I just don't know how to do it... I know no one here, I have nowhere to go, no one to ask for help...
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Hi melly06,
I am really sorry to hear all this mate, I agree that you should get out of there as soon as you can. Your boyfriend obviously has issues to deal with and we could find compassion if he was willing to work on it, but the way he is treating you is not acceptable.
Have you searched for emergency accommodation/shelter in your area? We shall find you some links to groups that can help. You could ring the Beyond Blue phone service for some advice and support, it's free and 24/7. Are you working? If you have some money you could find a share house or such?
Jack
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Hi Melly,
I'm not sure what advice has been given to you through the moderators, but from my own personal experience, it doesn't get any better when a relationship is as controlling as your seems to be.
I don't really know who to suggest you contact as we have no idea where you are living. One suggestion I have is for you to go to the police for advice. You don't have to make charges against your boyfriend, but they will be able to provide you with all the information you need so you are safe.
I left my first husband as he became extremely violent and brutal. I escaped one night when he went to the hotel to buy more alcohol. All I had was my handbag and the clothes I was wearing...but I had my life back.
I was lucky that friends took me in until I could sort things out for myself.
I really do hope that you can leave that situation as soon as possible and as safely as possible too.
Take care, from Lauren
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dear Melly, I am pleased that Jacko and Lauren have replied to you, as your situation isintangible, meaning that your situation has to definitely be changed.
His addiction to weed doesn't seem to suit him and certainly no benefit to you, and what ever else he maybe taking which he could hide from you.
He has an obsession about you and doesn't want you to have any contact with any other people, well first of all this is not possible, and when he retaliates, calls you names and then becomes abusive is not what you need in life, because it will only get worse over time, but this is not going to happen because you have to move out, block his mobile number as well as his parents phone number, or if necessary get a new sim card, because what may happen is that he plus his parents may try and ring you and this isn't what you want.
You mention October and is this because the lease runs out, but it's too far away, your safety is so much more important than anything else at the moment.
Your only young but this current relationship is destroying your ego, confidence and self esteem, so what I would like you to do is to make up your mind what in the house/flat you want to take, and then organise someone to pick these items up when your boyfriend is not at home in his daily chores, or if you like just leave everything.
I always mention Anglicare when people are in financial trouble, or need counselling or require accommodation, as they do all of these, plus you can contact the BB phone number who will also help you, but everything has to be sorted out before you move, but you don't have much time and please don't procrastinate.
I am so pleased that you come to this site, and sorry I didn't welcome you to the site, but please we want you to get back to us. L Geoff. x
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Hi,
I have little to add after my friends here have mentioned it all.
Abuse- well you have to walk away from it. One thing is certain, you have no good future with this man and deserve better.
Tony WK