Hi all, I am a teenager in australia and have been going through a disorder called Hereditary Hemorrhagic Telangiectasia, or hht, which is when you bleed internally, and I have it in my stomach. Some of you may be wondering why this is under trauma, well since I was 12 months old I have been thru MRI's, blood tests, needles, anaesthetic, blood infusions, one colonoscopy, one surgery and a treatment that started early 2025. Because of this, I haven't been able to live a normal life, or I have managed to pretend long enough until know. Recently I have found out I need another colonoscopy sometime in 2026, and along with that I may need to restart the treatment, which terrifies me. To put this simply, I would rather die than do that ever again. I know it's for my health, and I can't control it, but it sucks and has made me unable to live a normal teen life with the mental issues this has caused me. I can no longer think of sleep as normal, I can no longer look at needles without thinking of blood, I can no longer talk about surgeries normally. This has damaged me in more ways than possible, and I hope that you all can support me.
