Hi Mrs Malone good to see you ☺
Your other post I'll keep an eye out for it can sometimes take up to 12 hrs to land
I'm sorry it's sounding like things haven't really settled for you by the sounds you're in quite deep. Depression has a tendency to sit and stew underneath if we haven't been able to work through it and you've certainly had a very hard time of it and the trigger has stirred up a great deal of pain I am sorry you suffered that cruel treatment.
When something happens it throws our balance it seems to unlock more pain affecting our sleep and making us vulnerable.
Depression can be worked through which is a comforting thought. I wonder have you felt up to ringing any help lines or talking to your GP who have several resources to help at their disposal. It gets too hard darl to go alone although I'm so happy you have your lovely sounding husband by your side. That'd be a great comfort.
Something that can help which at this point I understand can sound like it won't work but keeping in mind positives in your life while you're thinking of them you're giving yourself some reprieve from pain which as you'd know can be all consuming. Our minds if we don't put light in our thoughts become habit in thinking on negatives only and depression deepens which isn't impossible but harder to pull up from.
Do you have interests maybe drawing, gardening, cooking music etc these simple activities can save our sanity giving us a temporary different focus. They don't solve problems but allow a much needed break. A good way of releasing stress I don't know if you enjoy walking and the sunlight has proven benefits for mind and body and it's nice being out amongst it.
I really am sorry you're doing it so hard. I hope you feel comfortable to talk anytime you need. Wishing you light and 🕊peace ahead in your journey ⚘
