Dear Big_Lok~
Good oyu came here. I don't know why but anger is so much part of it. I have PTSD from different causes and do not react in quite the same way, the blame goes inward, the anger outside. I used to be frightened I'd hit my partner - never happened though. I've some sort of good news, as time goes on it does get better. I say sort of because it has not been all that quick.
Maybe I'm lucky, but a couple of psychiatrists and finally settling on some meds has got me to a much better place, plus my partner was wonderful. I owe her a lot. One thing that helped her was her mum, who gave practical and emotional support - love. Does your partner have anyone?
With that much counseling I'm sure you would know having strategies to fall back on when feeling 'taken over' or 'overwhelmed' is a good thing to try for. Can I ask what sort of things you have? I used to walk like mad. When a bit calmer carpentry - made lots of bookcases.
I would like it if you came back again, it can help at times
Croix
