CPTSD & Bipolar, but still trying to smile.

[Jasmin15]

Wow, would you look at that. I’ve reached out for human contact... Hi guys, I’m a 29 year old mother of three. And clearly I use humour or sarcasm to mask my true emotions... sigh.. Anyways I thought I’d post my first time and introduce myself to others who also have similar MHCs.

I have been on a long journey with my mental health and it began when I was a child. Being sexually abused for 10 years til the strength to make my way in the world. However due to trauma, a lack of education and a rebellious streak I didn’t seek the help I needed til much later in life. When I found myself homeless, pregnant and alone. I endured many years a single mother, made some poor decisions had the worst luck when it come to my decision regarding my partners. I ended up suffering a great deal of violence, both physical and sexually in natural, in my early twenties. I managed to free myself after years of torment at the hands of the biological father of my youngest child. I’ve been in a safe, new home now for 2 years now. Just started to see my doctors and have my medicines fixed up. I still have really shit days. But today was a good day. I seen my psychiatrist and spoke about making a new plan to manage my bipolar. I feel sad sometimes, and wonder does the trauma ever go away?

Does anyone else have similar issues? Hoping to find some hope, maybe some new cyber friends or possibly even inspiration.

Much love to those who are suffering and their families.

[Birdy77]

Dear Jasmine15,

I just wanted to acknowledge how brave and awesome it is that you've joined here and are sharing your story.

You have gone through such pain and trauma, and you are courageous for everything you have been through. You are a strong person and an inspiration.

I am so glad you had a good day yesterday! How are you feeling today?

Thank you for being here, i look forward to talking more with you.

We are here with you.

🌻birdy

[Doolhof]

Hi Jasmin 15,

I too welcome you to the community here on the forum. Hope you feel comfortable to have a look around. There is a social section you might like to have a look at, you are welcome to join in on any thread here.

It sounds like you are a survivor! Congratulations to you.

Sometimes we make choices in life that seem right at the time, then in hindsight we can see they were not the best . We each have the opportunity to make the most of today and tomorrow.

Mental health issues can cloud our days, some will be better than others. I know I can sometimes accept the depression when it hits and find ways to move on, other days it is impossible to do so. That is when I accept I can't do much and tell myself the down times will not last forever.

Sorry to read of your experiences. Hope you receive the help you need to enable you to move forward. We may never forget, we can make choices on how we want to live from now on.

There are certainly many inspiring stories here on the forum!

You have just shared part of yours!

Cheers from Dools