Hi my name is B, i am 27 and ive suffered complex ptsd since i was a child. Stating from 4 years old i was constanly sexually assaulted, raped and abused by family members and friends of family, all while having to look after my dying grandmother and great grandmother aswell. After they died i was taken to my auntys house in another state to which sexual assult happened again over and over. I was then placed into numerous foster homes until 16 then i fell pregnant with my daughter. This is just the short version and not everything that happened to me is written here but the amount of pain and confusion these events create for an person is massive. I dont know how to handle life to be honest and i have a huge problem with marijuana disorder due to trying to mask the pain. I have decided to go cold turkey with giving it up because its not healthy for me but giving it up also has alot of negative impacts on my mental health, i guess what im asking is how do people cope with everyday life with cptsd and also how do people handle withdrawl symptoms from giving up marijuana?
