changing the system

Ariki1993

i’m a victim of sexual abuse in childcare I was just a minor when it began when I was 14 yrs of age in residential care 2007 right up and till i was 22 when she then was on life support blaming me for her actions i wanted to change but she wasn’t letting me live a ordinary life help me help anyone in state care who can grow up becoming something they always destined to be with the right support

becoming the opposite of who they first was coming in to homes brought of the streets where you might be to becoming holy or not this is for one to live a lonely long life of disappointment but the fact is i’ve survived i’ve been to prison i’ve stayed when things gets tough and now people want to know me well i’m a victim of unpolitical justice in a very sickening world i grew up violently and mistreated from my mom myself and the social workers 18yrs later im mentally unwell i’m getting worse by the day my heart is hurting and my health and lifestyle is because of my trauma don’t judge

Ariki1993

2007 assigned to a allocated carrer

i hopped out f the residential care car drunk and missing my front teeth from getting in a fight which caused a riot with the melbourne police

and that’s when i fell out the car drunk i’m only 14 and i met this new worker assigned to be a substitute worker she was married 23 yrs with 2 girls and 1 boy all my age and really good people she was a teacher in footscray funraised from western bulldogs she was a very nice lady she really had the biggest heart for me she taught me how to drive manual she buys a property 4hours from melbourne we use to go hotels or she would do a 2day stay at other residence why the owners were out and she invited me

Ariki1993

6months later day trip williamstown beach sat at the grass bit under these pine trees making bracelets

just me and her

and the first thing that went through my head processing what she had said when she said i love you and she immediately guilt trips meaning the second she new she slipped up could cost her or break my whole entire world apart but i didn’t know the outcome as at the time i was still recovering from family violence or being trapped in a room for 3months i had choices but everything she was doing for me made sure every option wasn’t a threat made sure i be safe which she did she made me feel loved it was strange then later only to realise every time we meet up the world wasn’t allowing it and we be very discreet about it even the other social workers had there suspicions.

if you are reading this lady i loved you and don’t want to hurt you anymore