Burnt out, ugly and alone.

[Wartz_n_all]

Hello anybody out there. My first post. Reduced story is I am 48 Single mum of 4 for 18 years. Left my kids father for domestic violence, shunned by my family along time ago so I am all my kids have it has been a long journey. I try to be grateful for what I do have. I do believe the universe is on my side as we have been housed clothed and fed with very little drama. The years are telling on my me i have not aged well. I have no friends but strangers seem to sick me dry and when they feel better I am lime a lepper..
I am really struggling with what is it all for....my soul is just so empty.

[SarahZ]

Hello Wartz_n_all,

Welcome to the forums and thanks for posting. I just want to first say I'm in awe of your strength and courage in leaving a domestic violence relationship. You are exceptionally strong and should be tremendously proud at what a terrific role model you are to so many people. I'm sure your 4 beautiful children must be really proud of their mother. The advice by @The Snu is really refreshing - love being alone in your own company! That's a really empowering perspective to have, and probably a really important step to achieve before branching out to new people. It's always important to be in love with ourselves and our own company before sharing your magic to others. More than often those people who have the exact energy as you will find themselves naturally gravitating towards you - it's just a matter of time.

Wishing you the very best ~

[emptyvessel]

hi I'm newbie here too I just feel so empty all the time and lonely I left my family back in Ireland and moved to oz with my partner who turned into a monster after few weeks of him being back home ,long story short he nearly killed me raped me left me for dead .but I gradually got over most of that but had massive trust issues ,then married guy at work "groomed" me as my councillor says and he attacked me in my home I fought him off but still can't come to terms with it ,I've let my self get so ugly and I don't go out I don't care bout food outdoors anything I just wish I was as strong as you u should be very proud keeping ur kids going while I can't even look after myself ,Bless you

[Sophie_M]

Welcome emptyvessel,

We are so sorry to hear about what you have been through. We are so glad that you had the courage to reach out here. We can hear that you are quite wounded by these traumatic experiences. It's good to hear that you are seeing a counsellor, and it sounds as though this has been helpful for you. It can be a long journey of recovery after such significant traumas, especially when you are so far from home. Please know that you ARE strong for coping as well as you have.

We would strongly urge that you contact 1800RESPECT between counselling appointments when you are feeling overwhelmed and needing to talk. They offer confidential information, counselling and support 24/7 for people impacted by sexual assault, domestic or family violence and abuse. The lovely supportive counsellors have a lot of experience offering advice to support to women who have been through trauma like this. You can contact them on 1800 737 732 or https://www.1800respect.org.au/

Being so far from home can be really isolating, and this can make it even harder to cope. It might be helpful to join a support group to try and build a social network in your area.​​​You can find information on support groups available on the Black Dog Institute site here - https://www.blackdoginstitute.org.au/resources-support/support-groups/

If you would like to seek some support from the community, we would recommend that you start a new thread in this section to introduce yourself and share your story. We hope to see you around the forums.