unsure what to do

[Wednesday]

Hello,

When do you know a relationship is over?

[Lost_Girl]

I'm so sorry you are in so much discomfort and pain. I hope you rest well lovely. Gentle hugs xx

[Starwolf]

Hi Ava,

I hope you don't mind me dropping in to check how you are traveling...

Sorry you are feeling so unwell. It doesn't make all the rest any easier, does it ? Fingers crossed you will soon be on the mend and feeling stronger ...better equipped to face the somewhat discordant music at home.

I am relieved to read that brave and wise decisions have been made. Nothing like deadlines to focus attention and resolve... Well done ! 🙂

I am also glad that you have found ongoing support and sound advice. This is well deserved as you are also helping and supporting other forum members in need.

Please don't bother responding to this brief message. Just keep doing what is most needed right now : take care.

[Emmy.]

Hi Wednesday (sorry do you prefer Ava?)

Good to read that you and P had a talk about your relationship. Has there been any improvements?

Are you feeling a bit better? Hope the pain has gone away also.

Having a nice time in Bega although didn't like the town of Bega. All the little towns around the area are nicer. We are actually in a small town called Bembroka 🙂

Having a nice time and only one panic attack.

Hugs to you hun. Emmy xx

[Wednesday]

Hi Emmy,

I don't mind what you call me, whatever feels right for, you is fine.

I adore those little towns, lucky you.

P is trying, but it is hard for him.

I've upped the amount of medication I am taking, which is helping. I hate the side effects though, a necessary evil I guess. Because I have no immune system I catch anything going. Currently on my third lot of antibiotics.

I really proud of you making the journey. One panic attack that you managed is a great achievement. Three cheers for Emmy! Lots of tickles for Poochie.

I have combed all of Happy's curls out over the last few days, he's turned into a ball of fluff on legs!

Hugs, xx

[Emmy.]

I'm glad that P is trying.

I'll keep calling you Wednesday if that's ok cause that's what I know you as now and on every Wednesday (like today) I smile and think of you!

Would love to see a photo of Happy looking like a fluff ball 🙂

Thanks for your support regarding the trip.

Love, Emmy xx

[Guest_5218]

Morning Ava my beautiful caring understanding friend.

Sorry I havent been around all week. I see you are still suffering badly, you poor thing. The fact that all your tendons, connective tissue, etc is all affected must be just awful for you. I guess it is somewhat reassuring to think that the recent bugs you have had could be causing the other treatment to be ineffective. So there is still a reasonable chance that this treatment will still work for you. So a couple of weeks for the next infusion?

You're right, the increased medication in the meantime is a necessary evil for you unfortunately. The side effects of any medication is not ideal. But better than the alternative. (-:

I am impressed that you have set some plans in place for a reassessment of your relationship with P. A re-evaluation of where you're both at next July sounds like a pretty good plan. It gives both of you the chance to work out exactly what it is that you both want and the time to change whatever needs to change to make things happen.

Thinking of you Ava with lots of affection and love. Take care and give Happy a cuddle from me.

Sherie xx

[Wednesday]

Hello dear one,

Lovely to see you around. I'm pleased that the chat line has been helpful and feel better knowing that you have somewhere to go when times get tough. You remain in my thoughts and I'm with you on any of your struggles, take extra special care of you, pretty please! xxx

Yes I have an infusion due in a couple of weeks. But, if I can't throw the bug that's haunting me the hospital wont allow me to have the infusion. The infusion destroys my immune system so with no immune system and a seemingly antibiotic resistant bug the infusion becomes too dangerous for me to have.

P joked that I should get a big bubble to live in, he was thinking of a Seinfeld episode. It's tempting, though I feel a bit like I live in one anyway!

Don't be to impressed yet about the July evaluation date. Though it is good to have, heavens knows what I'll do or even if I would be strong enough to do anything. P did pick up for a few days but is back to being a bit overly sensitive and insensitive now. Some days it's just to hard to care.

Happy hasn't had any walks for days throwing toys for him to chase isn't quite the same as a full pelt run around the nearby oval. There he gets to chat to other doggies and pick up and answer any Pmail that is waiting for him.

Recently I changed his dry dog food ( because the one I usually give him was out of stock) and have now reverted to the original. Last night he had a mixture of the two dry foods. Happy very carefully sorted the food into two piles the replacement dog food was moved outside his bowl and only the original left in the bowl and eaten! He thanks you for the cuddles.

Love and hugs dear one, xx

[Guest_5218]

Morning Ava. How are you today? The weather is beautiful here, so I hope you are also getting some nice weather.

Yes I have been accessing the online chat during last week while I wasnt coming on here. I know now that it is a useful service and that I can access it again any time I need to. Well ... within the hours of 3pm to 12midnight anyway. But I am taking care Ava, so please dont worry. My thought processes are still not great, but I'm sure I will be okay.

Gee Ava, I so hope you can shake these bugs before your next infusion is due. I recall before your last one that you had a bit of a bug then, and didnt want to tell them because it would mean you couldnt have it. And given the danger that presents to you, I hope you dont do that again! (-: Perhaps a bubble would be good, even if only for a while. I remember a story years ago about the 'boy in a bubble'.

Happy would be happy just having you with him I think Ava, so dont be too hard on yourself for not getting out with him for a walk. Whenever the weather is wet or bad, Holly has to make do with throwing her soft toys up the hallway for a game of fetch. She loves that anyway. I know its not quite the same, as they dont get out there to socialise and collect all their 'Pmail' as you curiously call it. Very apt actually, I like it.

I am thinking I will take Holly for a walk this afternoon. I have to drop 'grumpy' down to the local Tavern to attend his footy tipping presentation afternoon. So I will drop him off and then go walking with Holly at one of the local sports fields and little school grounds. I havent taken her there for a while, so she will like that.

How funny, about Happy picking through his food. Holly does that when I need to give her either worm or tick treatments. Its those chewy ones they are meant to like and eat from your hand. But Holly doesnt like them. So I put them in small bits and put them in her dry food, hoping she will eat them. But no ... she picks all the way around them until all the dry food is finished, but the worm or tick meds are still sitting there untouched. Little bugger.

Hope you are feeling better Ava. Love to you and a big hug.

Sherie xx

[Wednesday]

Hello lovely,

i treasure your posts thank you. You are such a treasure.

I've been in hospital the last few days with pneumonia and complications. Hopefully they will let me out tomorrow. I'll have to wait and see what happens with the infusion.

Struggling a bit.

Love and hugs, xx

[Lost_Girl]

Oh beautiful lady,

I am so sorry you're in hospital so unwell. I hope they are doing their best to keep you comfortable.

Are you feeling better? Is this why you think you may be able to go home? Please take care, make sure you are really ready before going home.

Does P help a lot when you have been this bad? You deserve someTLC.

If I could I would send some flowers. I am not sure if your device will let you see emojis but please find some flowers below if you can.

I hope for a quick recovery.

Love Carol xx

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