This bipolar life

[Kazzl]

Are your moods are like an elevator with no control buttons? Mine are.

Ground floor ... I feel normal, content, just quietly getting on with ordinary, everyday life, loving my family and friends. This is as it should be. And maybe there's nothing wrong with me after all. Live.

Going up, top floor. Oh look! There's a shiny thing! I want to sing! Let's go buy stuff! Let's have a big party and invite the world! What could possibly go wrong! Woooooo hoooooooo! Play.

Going up (a different day) top floor. What do you mean you don't agree with me! I'm right! Why don't you think like me? Keep up! How can you be so illogical? I'll f-ing shred you if you don't do what I want! Rage.

Going down, lower ground floor. Flat, listless, can't be bothered. Can still function but it's a drag. Cope

Going down, basement. I'm never getting out of bed again. I'm useless, worthless. Total idiot, how could I ever imagine I could do anything, nothing ever goes right because I'm wrong. I'm a burden to everyone. Hide.

Welcome to my bipolar world. It's always been my world, but it's only recently I've seen it for what it is. About 15 years ago I was diagnosed with clinical depression during one of my 'basement' times. I had a lot of lower ground floor times too, on and off, and I kept out of the basement (so I thought) with alcohol. Until that took me into the blackest ever basement with only one obvious way out. Having survived doing something very dangerous I realised I had to stop drinking or I really would die.

I never took much notice of the playful times or the anger, that was just me, I was fun sometimes, and sometimes I was a devastating bitch. Ha! Deal with it people!

Well, yes, but in time the elevator started going up and down too quickly and, as I became more aware and more knowledgeable about mental health I realised this wasn't good. Doctor. Diagnosis. Bipolar 2. Lithium.

So, I've started this thread in the hope that other bipolar folks will join me, to share experiences and strategies. In my 'beginners' understanding, we are different from other fellow travellers of the back dog. While we experience depression as many others on this site do, the hypomanic or manic ups and, for some the rapid cycling that can happen, are experiences unto themselves.

I want to learn more, and I want to share with others. I hope my fellow elevators will join me here.
BTW, it's a ground floor day in my head today! Yay!

Love

Kaz

[velvetfaerie]

When I dream, which is not too common, I always have latent feelings from that dream throughout the day. It kind of sucks. I don't understand why I am that way.

My air fryer = Is the best things I have ever bought for my home. The food turns out fantastic. And apparently its lower in calories. But besides that, the food is THE BEST. I love bashing veges through it, meats as well. Reheating pizza in it is FANTASTIC.

😄

[Airies]

Velvet,

must be a bipolar thing as in latent feelings throughout the day. My dreams are very vivid and often work related(PTSD ) and lingers on more often then not throughout the day.

Airfryer sounds very user friendly. My wife has every apparatus known to man. A great cook. If we had the room I'd buy one.

Quirky I must admit our 3 cruises have always been in a warm climate. They are great fun and the food is simply Devine .

i too would like t be medication free but that won't happen.Hope all have an OK weekend.

cheers

[velvetfaerie]

Maybe it is re latent feelings. I dream of things that were traumatic too. Then I spend a lot of the day getting over it. Man thing tells me “it’s just a dream.” This is from someone who’s life has been very beige. Yes it’s a dream but there’s that latent thing going on.

airfryer is epic. Find room 😁😁😁

i better get sorted for exercise blast.

v.

[quirkywords]

Latent feelings is a nice way of describing the after effects of the dream.

Velver you are an exrecise guru.

Quirky

[Airies]

Have same problems re dreams.They play on your mind. Some nights are ok but most it's vivid as. My wife says it's just a dream. Means well but really no one knows the anguish as we do. It's just a s**t and I wish it would go away.

No excecise for me today. Bulk of day in garden and pooped. Counts as excercise. This mild wether is very excercise friendly. A must do tomorow after the domestic chores,

cheers

[quirkywords]

Hello everyone,

Aries

yes people who have sweet happy dreams do not understand the dark emotional ones. I would say a day of gardening is plenty of exercise.

Quirky

[velvetfaerie]

Lol I had a funny dream. Hard to remember but I remember being by the ocean. I remember fish. I remember chatting to an old work colleague who no longer works where I do. We were friends. Funny thing is in real life she’s aquatinted with my mans ex. New unexpected discovery a few weeks ago 😆

ahahahahahah

[quirkywords]

Velvet,

I think Freud would have a field day with your dream, lots of subconscious nalysis there I think.

How is everyone ? Any questions>? Anything new to report?

Quirky

[velvetfaerie]

I’m a walking science experiment really.

I’m tired I went hard at the gym this am.

Hope y’all good!!!

V.

[quirkywords]

A walking science experiment - i like that, but maybe we all are in some aspects.

I think I went to a gym once and that was to meet a friend.

Gyms and me don't mix. Too much Lycra and sweaty bodies and sweat bands.

Quirky