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Sharing strategies to help with PTSD

PamelaR
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One of my biggest learnings has been - PTSD is not like a broken arm. When you break your arm, it mends. PTSD is with you for life. It took me ages to recognise that I'd been triggered. Some of the simplest things - like going to the shopping centre at the beginning of winter and seeing the multi-colour shirts - red, blue, black squares. The hardest part for me is identifying the trigger because the pacing heart, the sweats, the panic, the fear doesn't happen immediately. It happens after I walk out of the shopping centre.For the first few years after being diagnosed with PTSD I was hell bent on identifying the trigger. Now - I don't worry. I simple accept I'm triggered - do my breathing, relaxation to beautiful music, write down my feelings and emotions, talk with my husband. Let him know I've been triggered. Most times my cats won't come near me while I'm working through a 'phase', but they certainly know when I've come out the other side. They come and give me lots of comfort and love. The down side of how I manage is to drink alcohol - to stop the feelings and emotions. It doesn't work, but it helps go to sleep. I'm not recommending drinking as a strategy!!

I have had 2 excellent psychologists that helped me. It's important to find someone other than those close to you to talk to. One was very good at helping me identify what was happening - e.g. being super alert, wanting to save or please people. Recognising these things helped to build better relationships with my work colleagues and my friends. I have conversations in my head - oh, you just want to please because something has frightened you. Then I say - you're okay, you're safe, you can say what you need to.

Basically, the strategy of self talk in a challenging way - I challenge what I'm doing, what I'm thinking. But I also recognise the little girl who screams out when things happen and comfort her. Very important to know she hurts terribly and needs comfort. The comfort she never received as a child.

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PamelaR
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Thank you Bindi for getting back to me and sharing your feelings.

I had a breakdown after 18 months of working through my childhood rape (that I only remembered 7 years ago). I couldn't function, couldn't think, couldn't feel. I relented and took antidepressants and saw my counsellor almost daily for about 3 weeks. I came out the other side. My husband's been a strength to help be through this period. So I did talk about the things I was remembering, but only to the counsellor at that stage. Later on I was able to talk with my husband about the atrocity. Then much, much later (a few years) I started talking with friends and colleagues at work. Never about the detail, only about how I was feeling. Talking about how I feel does help. Not immediately because I go into anxiety when I first disclose. It happened to me today when I was at the macro photography workshop. I disclosed to one friend who I've known for 12 months that I have PTSD. Well, of course I suffered later on and it's taken some talking to myself to bring me down. That is - I'm safe, I'm in no danger, give comfort to my inner child who hurts and doesn't like me disclosing.

When I am triggered, I go fuzzy in the head, I want to run away (escape) from the situation I'm in, I get nauseas, and have strong heart palpitations. I've begun to recognise that wanting to escape is the first indicator that I've been triggered. Overtime, I have found, as soon as I acknowledge and accept that I've been triggered, the symptoms seem to decrease a little. Not sure this helps you at all.

I don't talk much, but I do try to express my emotions verbally. I've found that crying over sad movies doesn't help, I need to talk about what it was in the movie that caused me to cry. So now I do try to talk about the movie and it's intricacies. I try not to watch the news and current affair programs anymore and only watch movies that are filled with adventure, action or comedy. Avoid the sad ones, I really hate being sad. While one counsellor suggested that is my personality type, I think it's more to do with having a mother who was incredibly sad and despondent, amongst many other horrible things.

Dear Pam,

I really feel like calling you `dear' after that post, for quite a few reasons. I relate to so much of what you wrote. I understand how you felt through all that, and appreciate you so much for sharing those experiences.

I don't know if we spoke about it yet, photography is one of my main passions. I want to ask you about what you use, as I'm a total gear geek, not that it matters. I'm mainly using specialized wildlife photography stuff, my partner and I love nature and bird photography together. We started out with gear when it was `wow 5MP!!!' , and now we finally enjoy some pretty nice specialised lenses and camera bodies, including macro.

Its how I started in wildlife rescue, I am not able to notice suffering and not do anything about it, and so on....I'd be one of those documentary makers filming polar bears dying on melted ice caps, and that polar bear, no way was he going to die. I would do everything to make sure that guy lived, I'd carry it home and noone would mess with me, because woman protectiveness.

I was going to talk to you about your mental breakdown, and how much I relate to the way you described experiencing it. How I felt exactly the same way as you did. See what I did there? I totally avoided it:) I will write about that. I think ti deserves a proper discussion, because that experience really gets to the heart of PTSD IMO.

I like what you said about trusting people around you, gradually.

Guest8901
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Hi Pamela. We spoke earlier today in The Cafe. I said then that I had been following your threads with interest, to which you said to drop in. So here I am.

I must say that I feel like a bit of an imposter coming here right now, because I havent been diagnosed with PTSD. However I have read a lot on the Beyondblue website about it, and I appear to have almost all of the typical symptoms. The cause is one of the classic ones, sexual assault, where my life was under threat. I have an appointment with my GP this coming week where I hope to take the first step in the process of finally doing something about my mental health. Until now I have not spoken to anybody about it, nor received any assistance. The symptoms have been there for many years, to varying degrees, but they have become consistently worse these past couple of years. There have been a number of additional stresses recently which have probably contributed to that.

So I would like to follow along with your thread here if I may? I will probably be mainly in the background, but definitely listening and hopefully learning. Thank you for allowing me to be here.

Amanda

PamelaR
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Dear Bindi

Thank you so much for your post. It heartens me that you are opening up. It takes time, hey. Writing down feelings is a great benefit. The tears used to roll down my face and I sobbed and sobbed, but continued to write it all down. I will have to destroy all my journals before I die. They are pleasant reading, though when I used to get really, really low and couldn't understand why, I went back to the journals and read the horror I endured. I haven't looked at these for many years now. Not the I've come to terms totally with what happened, but rather, I'm in a better place in my head. The anger I had for decades has passed and I'm at peace. Though still get panic attacks when I've been triggered and depressed when I don't do something about it. It's a vicious circle with loads of learning on the way.

It's marvellous that we have such a common interest - the outdoors, photography. And yes, I too have a partner who has the same interest. In fact it was he would got me interested in photography. It makes life very easy and good. Love to take photos of nature - animals, birds, trees, water. Everything. A little less inclined to take photos of people. However, I do sometimes at events.

Over the past couple of years we've acquired a range of different cameras and lenses. It's expensive and the purchasing will cease now that we've both retired. But I really do want the latest Fuji X-T2.... LOL. My husband has it and I love it. I have the X-T1.

Yes, I did notice that you avoided the purpose for which you were really writing. But, hey, that's okay. Give yourself time. Don't be hard on yourself. Trust is a big thing to people with PTSD. I've spent my life keeping people at arms length. It just so happens that my partner also suffered sexual abuse in his late teenage years and suffers from PTSD too. But he is someone I totally trust. I can't say there are many others out there that I do.

BTW - I really do like your wildlife rescue. It's awesome!! I can imagine you out there saving some poor stranded polar bear. Such great qualities Bindi.

Kind regards

PamelaR
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Hello Mandy8

Welcome to the PTSD forum, sharing strategies to help with PTSD!

I'm so pleased you took me up on my suggestion. No pressure for you to participate - feel free to read. I'm happy to share some of the things that I've done to cope. I don't think you're an imposter 🙂 There are no rules that say you can't read or reply to specific forum threads.

There are a couple of things for anyone who wants to read this thread, that I think help significantly with managing PTSD -

* you'll learn when you're triggered (i.e. what your triggers are). This helps to start - focus breathing, exercise, eating properly, getting sleep, letting know those close (e.g. partner) know you're triggered. Doesn't make it stop unfortunately, but it does make sure you're taking care of yourself and those who care for you know what's happening.

* keep a journal of your feelings, emotions, thoughts, interactions with those who matter.

* find someone you can talk to and trust. My psychologist/s know all the details of what happened. My husband knows a little less. Close friends and close work colleagues know I was raped as a child, but do not know the details. Mainly I'm protecting those close to me from all the horribleness. They don't need to know and I don't want to tell them.

* if you trust your GP won't just prescribe anything and everything, take medication she/he prescribes. It helps with some of the symptoms. It took me ages to take medication. Had I done so, I might not have ended up having a mental breakdown.

Mandy, I hope your visit to the doctor helps you to develop a mental health plan. It's a positive step! Good on you.

quirkywords
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Pamela and everyone post

I want to thank you for starting this thread and all the people who have posted for their bravery and honesty.

I know people who have PTSD and looking back I think my dad who was a prisoner of war suffered some of the symptoms but back then there was no diagnosis or recognition and he was told to forget the horrors and get on with his life.

I feel I could have been more understanding.

One of the things I lie about the forum is that people come here seeking help and the find they can help others.

I just want you know I appreciate what you are doing and how helpful it is to many people.

Thanks

Quirky

PamelaR
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Hello quirkywords and everyone else

Thank you for your kind comments. It's lovely to know our comments are appreciated. They do come from the heart.

Not sure that it stems from bravery though. Being in BB and these forum discussions is a little anonymous, so I feel safe.

I know what you mean about your dad and the war. I think my dad had PTSD too and I think he saw some horribly things during the war. One thing though my father was very good at was walking away (out the door for awhile) when he wasn't the best. His sense of humour and love of nature helped our family a lot (and me in particular). I think he over compensated for my mother's moroseness and her continuous nagging!

I too appreciate the others contributions to this thread by others. Bindi, Emily, Mandy8 and yourself quirkywords.

Thank you all!

PR

Hi Pam,

So sorry for dropping the ball, Pam. I tried to write back earlier, but I am nursing some critically sick wildlife patients at the moment. They can't eat or drink on their own, and need a lot of my attention.

I wanted to let you know how much liked that list of suggestions you wrote to Mandy. I found quite a lot of that genuinely helpful. Thanks so much:)

Two things I used to do a lot , that seemed to help, were Journalling ,and being creative with various forms of Art and music.

I think I've always been someone who tackles feelings both head on, as well as indirectly. Writing really gets me to heart of what I'm feeling, I really appreciate that, especially journalling.

I also use musical creativity quite a bit, some Visual art well including photography, painting, drawing etc. My main work is creative, so its pretty much part of my life. I think is all fairly indirect, insofar as Art need not be a conscious recognition of thoughts, behind my feelings. Its just pure expression of feeling.

Some of my trauma is pre-verbal, so there no real memories or thoughts attached to what I feel. Music and Art help me at least know what I felt, when memory cannot help. I also know when I'm overwhelmed by feeling, because I tend avoid being creative 🙂 Something I love about Art created that way, and Artists who create it, is the strange way it communicates empathy. I like that is a different kind of language between people, different to writing and speaking. And yet full of meaning that is understood on an emotional level.

What about you Pam, is photography your main creative outlet, have been others too? (and please join in anyone else who feels like talking about this too?)

PamelaR
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Hi Bindi

I understand completely about the demands of wildlife. We've been bird carers in our life. Yes, they have special needs - feeding young regularly etc. This was okay while my partner worked at an animal refuge and he could take the birds with him. It became difficult to sustain when he took on caring for people. I worked in an office, which was not conducive to taking wildlife too. So we ceased our birding activities that we loved. So, yes, they are time consuming, but rewarding. It's sad when they don't make it though.

You are also such a very creative being! How wonderful you've been able to find a way to express your unconscious feelings. Beautiful. Do you play an instrument or use the computer for your creativity?? Do you compose music or jam?

Being personally creative has taken a back seat in my working life. Being creativity at work, LOL - suggestions were a little too out of the norm. Anyway, I did make significant changes while I was there.

But personally, I played music in my early years. Learnt classical flute and played in the queensland youth orchestra for about 4 years. Later on folk music took hold and enjoyed it so much more I learnt to play the tin whistle and folk music on the flute. LOL it was so difficult playing folkie music when classically trained 🙂 When I had my breakdown I took up the keyboard. Again, LOL. I realised that was never going to happen. My hands, feet and brain weren't coordinated enough. I persevered for a number of years and it helped to get out my emotions and feelings . Loved dancing and did demonstration folk dancing. My knees, hips and ankles are too loose now (no matter how much I do tendon strengthening) to continue dancing. Now I've reverted back to listening to classical music.

In the past I did some mosaicing. Have a few lovely pieces around the house - bird bath, bird wall hanging, coffee table top with a chinese luck design. I have an urge to take it back up, but need to find some local classes. Will get there.

My photography these days is my main creative outlet. Learning about my camera and it's capabilities, Lightroom and Photoshop keep be busy. I get anxious when I don't know how to do things.

About memories not being there - I know what you mean. Memories about feelings are not always there. Music helps.

Thank you so much for giving your precious time to respond. Very much appreciated Bindi.

I to would like to also hear from others about their creative outlets, if you want to join in.

Dear Pam,

Thank you so much for your thoughtful post, I've been trying to get back to you all day, sorry hon. Its been such a demanding day so far, and I wanted to write to you when I felt more present.

I'm really amazed and inspired by the many different ways you've found healing in your life. I know we started off talking about avoiding feelings, but look at all the wonderful healing things you have sought out personally, through your healing instinct. I find that amazing.

I personally value a lot of the major investments you've made during your life, such as caring for birds, learning an Instrument to a professional performance standard, being part of a good music community and teaching. I like the folk people too, I wish I was more a part of it sometimes. Woodford is not far from here, I really liked what they put on for new years eve.

My creativity outside of my job has been slackening too. I'm not sure why. It could just be because I'm so fullfilled from other things. But there's some creative things I want to do, and I would feel better if I finished them. I have bird paintings I want to finish for a local show, I started last year. I like this show, the place where its held. The art show attracts a lot of Australian wildlife lovers I want to know those people.

I'm more stumped with music. I can produce music on a computer and I keep keyboards . In my early 20's I arranged soundtracks for documentaries and short films, I won a couple of film festival awards that made me feel I should keep going. And then I wound up teaching film and TV production to students at a university. My sound track production knowledge was very valuable there. It was a great job for a while. So to answer your question, I guess I mainly jam, keep up my technical skills in computer music production, and worry about the time and money I put into it 🙂

Anyway, thanks again Pam, I will try to write again soon. I have had wholly dependent birds for 5 days and nights straight, with terrible fungal infections as well bacterial infections, and they are still holding on. At this point, I have to support them in 30 minute increments, its so hard on them. I am amazed by how much they fight for life.

Hope to talk soon 🙂