how do i stop crying

[Matchy69]

I feel so alone,i dont have many friends or anyone who wants to know what i am going through.I just find my self just breaking down and crying.I just want some one to listen and not to judge me.

[Matchy69]

I had about 2 hours sleep last night,a lot crying and thinking.How do i undo something that can't be undone?I do not blame anyone except my self.I go over and over it in my head.

[Aaronsis]

Ohh Good morning my friend

You sound so very sad, and my heart breaks for you, it really does. I am not sure of the answer to your question as if I did know I was surely fix it for you. The pain that you go through everyday is so very much and I feel for you.

Friendships are important to us and it does hurt when they end, just like grieving a death as we have chatted about before. It is even harder when you didn't want the friendship to end and I am so sad for you Mark.

You have been up so early already and the day must already feel half over.

I know this wont cheer you up much but i have a pic of my cat Aimee for you, I hope it will bring a small smile to your face.

Do you have anything planned for today?

Your friend

Sarah

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah thanks for your kind words.I know their is nothing i can do to fix it which makes it so hard.

I am on call with the school in case i have to pick my son up early which usally happens.

I feel like just staying in bed crying today.I dont feel like doing anything and probably best i dont do anything.

Your friend

Mark

[Aaronsis]

Hey Mark

I can hear how sad you are today and I am so sorry, I really am.

I love the picture you have updated it looks so beautiful.

I will put the one up of my cat soon.

Just about to go into a meeting so might be off for awhile.

Sending you hugs Mark

Your friend Sarah

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah another cute cat.My photo is of Tooloom Falls when i went camping there about 5 years ago.

I just been crying all morning,i just dont know how to move on with my life,if it even possible.I cant stop thinking about things,i have had so much sadness in my life but when something comes along i seem to allways ruin it.

At least it is cooler here today,some rain would be nice and might cheer me up.Maby a thunderstorm friday but it is becoming like a dessert out here it is so dry now.

Your friend

Mark

[Aaronsis]

Hey Mark

How is your afternoon going?
I have seen that you have been on some of the same threads as me and giving people some really great advice and being so supportive, I wish you could see how wonderful and caring you are and accept some good vibes into your life too. It is not easy to support others when you are feeling low and here you are doing that. That is so fantastic and you should feel proud.

I see you saw Aimee here on my new picture, don't you think she looks a little bit like bubbles?

I can't believe how quickly today is going, it is my daughters birthday tomorrow and I have so much still to do..argghh..and then there is the dreaded cake!!!

S

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah,the cats do look similar.

I hope the cake turns out for you and your daughter has a great birthday.

I just been watching cricket today,i havent done anything.I didnt get a call from the school to pick my son up which was good as i didnt feel like picking him up today and must have had a good day.Its so hard being strong for my kids but i try for them.They are my life.I just wish they had a happier father.But i think this will be as good as i will be.Try and hide the tears from them.

Your friend

Mark

[Aaronsis]

Hey mark

Hope your evening is ok and that you are feeling ok too.

I so wish I could do more to make you feel better and help you see how wonderful you are.

Thank you so much for the lovely message about the cake, I hope it turns out too..lol

You are so strong to try so hard to pull yourself together to be a good father to your children and I can already see how wonderful you are by how you cook for them and take them bowling and spend time with them, you are a fantastic dad you really are, they are very lucky. It is ok for them to see you sad from time to time as it helps them know it is ok to cry and that even we as parents and adults have bad days too. That it is important to let it out and to talk. You are a wonderful role model.

Just about to watch the first episode of the bachelorette, I know I know...lol

Hope you can smile soon

Your friend

Sarah

[Aaronsis]

Good MOrning Mark

Hope today is brighter for you and that you can get out and do something that will make you smile.

Hope bubbles is good too, bet she is outside already running around in that amazing garden.

Chat soon

your friend

Sarah

[Aaronsis]

HI Mark

I am hoping that you are ok and that you have just found something really wonderful to keep you busy.

Hope to chat to you really soon.

Your caring friend

Sarah