Hey Chloe and startingnew,
Chloe: I'm glad your excursion went well and that you had fun! I'm not surprised that you're starting to not want to be friends with your ex, it happens quite often. I never have a problem with dead things at a museum, education is important and museums are a great way to learn about things that you'd otherwise wouldn't know about.
My day was ok, I went to uni and was supposed to have a study group after class but everyone flaked out. It's really annoying because I was asked if I wanted to do a study group for the topic by the guy I'm "friends" with, yet Im the only one who seems to actually be serious about studying and getting good grades! I need to find a group who are high achievers like me so I'm actually surrounded by people who take stuff seriously and want to do well. It's so frustrating!
Startingnew: I had a feeling that you may have been through a similar childhood, child abuse is a good way to make sure that you feel crap about yourself for most of your life that's for sure.
For the most part I don't even think about the past, it happened and I can't change it. I more ask myself questions about things like "do I show emotions properly? Can I even feel emotions the same way as normal people? Do I show affection properly? What is affection? Do I even know what love is? I think I love people but do I love properly?" It goes on and on. I have never heard "I love you" from my parents and don't remember ever being hugged, so I've gone through life questioning if I even know how to feel positive emotions, is that weird? Hell it wasn't until my mum was in hospital earlier this year that she told me she was proud of me for the first time in my life. I thought to myself "she must be high on oxygen" 😂 (she had an asthma attack).
Hugs. Hope you had a good day xxx
