checking in for the day

[awrinkle_in_time]

where d i now right im so confused i have hit real low and not sure about anything i cant ring the people i normal call out to i dont trust anyone i just want to hide away i have express ed in the wrong way and have been looked out ...im hate everyone every one hurts me im pussed away by every person i know im going to try to sleep can someone just say some nice words to me

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hey Monks , the pool sounds like the perfect spot to be ....Its so hot up hear we had a ripper today it felt like about 50 ...kidding it wasn't that hot ....I go to the gym with a mate and he pushes me ...today was a big push and i found the mind playing tricks on me ....its a struggle for me but i did it ....the extreme exercise brings the mind stuff to the surface ....i think thats the best way to explain what happens to me ....its like all the stuff is in my head but it doesn't have any power over me cause im to stuffed from the exercise ...does that make sense ....do you know about that stuff ...can you explain better ....ha ha ....anyway im tired and will sleep well tonight ....you know i really want to dig into myself and i am ....i find it so much work lol ....im tired now and just writing ...i hope you had a nice day at the pool and the water was nice ...hope you put sun screen on and drank lots of water ....there was this show on tv but i didnt see it ....i just saw the add ...anyway a man found this lady he fell in love with years and years ago ...and the lived different lives apart .....and he decided to find her after many years ....he knocked on her door and thats where the add stopped ...anyway i thought that was so cool ......i love never forgotten ...i know what your going to say .....

:-).....i went down on saturday hey ....big time .....but feel okay now ....have joined a few meet up groups and that might get me meeting people .... i had steak for dinner ....it was yum ...had veg with it ....i better get some sleep ...

raved on enough to ya ..... xxx

[awrinkle_in_time]

Good Morning , im excited for your business and hope all is going well with the planning ....Good on ya for getting out there and having a go ...

I suppose you cant say much about what it is ....but please keep me posted on your progress with it ...

have a lovely day xxx

[monkey_magic]

Hey Hey,

How did the meet up thing go? Im sure people would be drawn to you. Stay open with walls & barriers down and ppl will want to be around you.

Thankyou for taking interest in my bizz thing means a lot, it's the most exciting thing to me right now lol, I love what I do. Maybe I'll reveal more I'm not sure.

My turn to make the coffee ( boil).

So, well, well.....

Here we r back at BB....

Feel free to talk my head off....ready set gooooo......

[awrinkle_in_time]

Good Morning , it means so much to me to receive a post from you i just love it so thank you xxx

I went to 2 meet up groups this week and it was great , the first one was just a walk along and then fish and chips ...14 of us (we had never meet ) anyway ....let me tell ya ....we set off and this lady walked next to me chatting away and was very friendly ...it was so nice to get out and mix with people ...all along the walk she made shore we walked next to each other it was so nice ....

Then last night another group of meet up people all went to a bar ...it was a pretty nice place ....so i was chatting with 2 ladies all night ....one was a bit of a man hater i recon but later in the night she came good .... we chatted all chatted about heaps of stuff ...i had 2 glasses of wine so i was okay to drive home ....and monkey i did have people attracted to me ...once we all meet there was a comfort amongst us all it was so good for me to mix ...i go away next week on my ski holiday and we all had dinner the other night ....( all the people coming skiing ) about 12 of us ...and we all laughed and told ski stories it was good for me as well ....it helps with my confidence monks and all these people understand me and except me ....which im so grateful ....so im doing stuff and will keep doing the meet up groups ...People from all walks of life just wanting human contact ...Boy ive spilled my gut on this post ....lol .....

hows the little business venture going ....im glad you have your teeth into something ....go on ya ....

i hope your well and all is good ....luv ya heaps monks ...

what did you do to the coffee probably the best coffee ive Ever had lol ....Every drop was enjoyed ...xxxxoooo

have a great day my friend , it cooler hear ..thank god ....

[monkey_magic]

Hey social butterfly,

Really good that you're out there socialising with different ppl, good for the mental health too. Social interaction is very important. Of course woman are attracted to you lol ;-).

So now that you have all this confidence you can go out and rule the world. 🙂

Oh how exciting, the ski trip. I remember u saying you'ld meet me at the airport, spot out my wig and you'll be the guy with the brown hair & big smile. From Xtreme heat to cold now, lol. Wish I was coming. Last time u wrote how it cleared your mind, good stuff. Enjoy!

I added some Baileys to the coffee...shhhh....

Speak soon,

MM x

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , so what colour wig will you have on .... ill keep an eye out for you ....would love you to come ....

Is that why the coffee was so good lol ...

Have a great day ....

xxxx

[monkey_magic]

Yeh the coffee now has 2 shots of Baileys- drink up.

How have u been travelling? Are u feeling better, I bet u are. If ur not I'm all ears. If u r I'm all ears as well.

My cars in repairs for a few days. How good would it be if we could be in repairs and come out brand spanking new without a care in the world. I think deep meditation can do that. Oh, to go to India and meditate.....

Hear from you soon I hope.

MM x

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi Lovely , ill buy us the tickets to India ....lets go tomorrow ...or tonight 🙂

The coffee was great ... baileys was a Nice touch...

Im up and down ....go back to work Monday have had a big break ...I still think of her and I really try to put it in the right place and I do after time but I still go through the emotions ...I have been out with a few other ladies and its just not the same ....I was having a coffee with a lady the other day we were chatting and all was good a nice lady ..looked out the window at a set of traffic lights and there was a car just like hers sitting at a red light ....I smiled at myself and we chatted ...then after a while I looked out- side again and there it was again same car as hers sitting at a red light ...I just couldn't believe it ...emotion came up in me ....I didn't show it to the lady I was with ...its just stuff like that all the time ...I understand that what you think you create ... it just never ends ....I did have a thought the other morning that she wasn't right for me and I valued my freedom and my life ...apart from the memories of her my life is pretty good ...im healthy fit ... I suppose just lonely .... no real answers I know its just life and grief ...I went out with a mate last night and he brings it up and I don't like it so I need to stay away from him ....hes a D...

I went to the beach with my daughter and the dog today ...we were in the water for hours ....was so relaxing ....I just miss her ... I truly can't see another relationship ....maybe the right one hasn't come along .... I'm okay just sick of the peaks and troughs ...Im glad your car is getting back on the road ... you will have your wheels back ...thats great ... I hope it all goes well ... When I divorced my wife she set the lawyers on me and it was very stressful ...all my hard earned money gone to the lawyers ....my wife and I got pretty much nothing ...her lawyer took the lot in fees then settled when he new the well was dry ....nice guy hey ...anyway thats all good I did the right thing throughout the whole process and am proud of the way I handled it .....so over all that thank god ....anyway ...I did lots of meditating ...and it helped me stay calm with the things that were out of my control ....I did 30 min 2 a day ...for months ...with the situation with the girl I don't want to let go ....bloody crazy hey ....Love talking with ya ...Luv Ya Monks xx

[awrinkle_in_time]

hey woke with this thought ....

Who we truly are is that of what we are in the deep state of mediation ....we are not the mind activity ...that is just stuff planted for us to deal with .... go back to our source which is a place of no mind ... for there we are totally free ...

Coffee xx

[monkey_magic]

Hi Awrinkle,

I liked that passage. Without the mind activity we r totally free. Living spiritually is freeing, letting go & taking control, claiming the reigns, living powerfully.

Perhaps you could see her as a distant memory. All my exes r distance memories but I also see things that bring it all back up again. I guess that's the mental journey we will always be on but it lessons in severity over time.

Lucky duck going for a swim. I'm just waiting for my car then I'll probably go. But in the lap pool. I don't live as close to the beach as you. I can actually smell sunscreen, that's weird.

Healthy fit- best way to be. Oh & thanks for the support about the weight loss...I just need to b more active even though I have some physical challenges.

India....here we come. You're so generous, even though I can only dream of it atm since this is a cyber friendship lol.

I really want to go on a holiday. Can't wait to do it. Hopefully in a few months I can book somewhere.

What a joke with the lawyers. It's devastating to have your money go down the drain like that. I really want to sue but have held back. So expensive for a lot of ppl to then get nothing out of it. Sounds like you've taken it on the chin which says a lot about your character. I know some ppl that never get over it.

I have work tomorrow as well...I've got money on my mind....

Peace out. Enjoy your Sunday funday!

Double trouble x