Alone..Depressed..Sad..

[Ggrand]

Hi..I'm new here..just need to put my feeling down..no one to talk to makes depression and anxiety so hard...the last 4 days I have either been in bed crying or on the lounge crying..I can't seem to get out of this...I am becoming a prisioner in my own home as its getting progressively difficult to go out.. I have to go out Tuesdays so I do everthing on that day but it's like I'm holding my breathe all day until I get back to the safety of my home then I can let go and that starts the cycle again of spending the next 6 days at home either in bed or on the lounge sad and depressed...I really feel like just giving up.. My husband passed away 4 years on This coming Thursday. My children live 6 hours drive away and have small children so I don't see them that much.Bad mum and grandmum I am on there last visit i was pleased to see them but I just wanted them to go home. I feel so aweful and numb atm..

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩! Magic, Paul, Paws..and all...🤗.

Thank you all for your kind heart warming words..They mean so much to me...your all beautiful people...whom I care so much about...

Deebi...Please don’t say what you said..You’re never far away from me...You always make me feel cared for, loved, safe and secure when you talk to me...Please take the time you need...umm not too long though...I’m missing you already...no pressure bbff...Just hoping so much that your doing okay...I’m concerned about you....I’m always here for you unconditionally.....and everyone else as well...

Deebi...your in my 💭..and yadimh with so much love and care..💜🧸🤗🌹...

Sending my care, love and hugs to you all..🦋💜🤗.

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy...🕊🌱..

[demonblaster]

Dear Grandy 🤗👩‍❤️‍👩 hi everyone 😊

You're a beautiful friend thanks Grandy you made me feel a little better. Tho I haven't been here properly but all good now sweetyheart 🤗 Always 👀 and 🗯 precious.

I'm so glad you're doing something for you and of course you're helping people that means a lot to you.
Your beautiful heart reaches everyone you speak to lovely.
Again congratulations honey.
You've always been a champion in my 👀

So glad you didnt go to work.
Seriously they need to get their act together. It really annoys me in times like this when people don't act responsibly. Geez the potential with covid ..well no need to go into but grr.

Ok thanks I took note on the calendar for your VC appointments.

For sure you'd be so worried about the boys.
Hun I imagine they'd be very aware of the situation and doing everything possible to keep their health.
Have they been in touch at all? I hope.

😆 yip It'd be good getting the beanie finished.
I reckon you'd be stoked having one. They're so incredibly comfy aren't they.
They don't do wonders for the hairstyle 🤤 but when your warm and snug who gives a toss eh 😄 And good job getting two rows done. It'd be easier to pick up and carry on as opposed to having to cast on. What colour darls

I think about all sorts of things with you hun. Naturally ✨
Did I tell you when I hear the birdies 🕊 esp in the morning I think of you straight away. So much security and comfort having you as a beautiful friend Grandz.
I really hope you're getting pleasure from Julie too I think often about her and dear Ebony snuggling to hers so cute.

Oh be good giving Bettys fur back. She's Mum isn't she? Oh the sweet loves they must love their time and their beautiful Mumma G looking after them. Dear things.

And shoppings a really big one.
Look how far too with Mrs Cranks whose settling a fair bit by the sounds. So good.
You're so kind helping her lovey.

You have reason to not be trusting easily huns. Way too much grief.
There are beautiful people around but I understand what you're saying dear love 🤗💗💜
Me too and us here gorgeous we're one of your families too 👩‍❤️‍👩💜

Love and care so very deeply sweetyheart. Same here you're part of me too precious friend/soul sista.

Please ubAok Grandy I couldn't bare not having you in my life either 🤗
Lysvm yAdimh sss bbff gg

Catch you tomoz at mine sweets 😚🦋🌱🗯👀🕊

Sleep well everyone 💗

[blondguy]

Hey Grandy 🙂 Thanks for the post!

just a quick comment re smoking if I can...

I recently noticed a judgemental comment on another thread about smoking...from a 'senior' poster

Everyone understands its a crappy habit and good on the people that have kicked the cigarettes 🙂 yet they are still a legal product that provide over $18 Billion in taxes every year

I have cut down yet quitting is hard for me

Sorry Grandy....just my 2 cents worth if thats okay

Hugs....Paul

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩, Paul and everyone..

Paul I did stop for nearly a year..then started again..now it’s only a few each day...and I hope to stop really soon..I’m pleased I’m not alone in my attempt to stop...Its not easy and I’m so proud of Deebi who has stopped..

Deebi...Thank you Deebi...for your inspirational words to me....they mean so much to me..

I’m going to try to go into work on Tuesday, newbie will back and Betty will be in for a couple of hours in the afternoon...I just wished the would follow the rules set up to protect both workers and customers...

Oh..was I pleased when Betty came to pick up her fur...her fur is one of my puppies I gave her..she is a daughter of Kya and sister to Ebony..It’s amazing that she is totally different personality then my 2 ..Bindi just doesn’t keep still..nor leave me alone..she grabs hold of the bottom of my jeans and walks with me...I nearly fell over a few times..it’s dangerous..I asked Betty about it and she does the same to her...I know Betty has had a few falls..maybe it’s her fur baby...I hope she can stop her from doing that...

I msged both my boys, and they responded back..and told me that they are being careful and both of them said they are not sending their children to school...That made me feel better...My dil is still not strong with the chemo she recently had..

Awe I cried when reading that nature Stars, singing birds, brings your thoughts to me...that’s so beautiful..Feeling safe and secure is a good feeling isnt it?...thats how you make me feel...love you so much bbff..💜🧸🤗🦋🌹🌱.

Ohh..the beanie..it’s a few different shades of soft light colours...purple, pink, grey, blue...all one ball intertwined with each other...I done a few more rows today..it might be finished by next winter 😂..

I must have looked so funny..sitting outside all rugged up with your blanky, a scarf around me, my warm boot 🥾 slippers on...crocheting my beanie with a sun hat 👒 on....had to keep my head warm somehow...😂..

Yes very hard for me to trust males... I tense up when I have to pass one in the street..if ones walking behind me..I cross the road...It’s hard for me to trust...I’m okay with my boss at work..

Hope your okay bbff..much love Deebi..💜💭.yadimh alway..

Sending everyone my care, love and hugs..🦋💜🤗..

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy..

[Tess2]

Dear Grandy,

i haven’t posted in ages, but I follow you. Congratulations on being a community champion. You deserve the acknowledgement. Now I am here I don’t know what to say.

i have never crocheted a beanie, but I have knitted several. I have just finished one to send to my son in England. Now I have to do a matching one for his little boy.

My dogs are curled up together for warmth I dare say.

grandy take care of yourself

love tess

[Ggrand]

Hello Tess, Deebi 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩. and all....🤗..

Its so really nice to hear from you...Thank you very much for your your lovely post..

Tess..it’s okay that you don’t know what to say...Just you popping in is a beautiful surprise....

I know your struggling and it’s hard to post when our mind is trying to stop negative thoughts...

I hope your okay lovely lady...I’ll visit your thread and say hi to you as well..and see how your going...

Hello Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩..

sending you some..well a lot of love, care and kind thoughts bbff...💜🦋🌹💭...RUOK.....no pressure...pubaok..yadimh..forever..

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy...

[demonblaster]

Dear Grandy 👩‍❤️‍👩 hi all 😊

Thanks sweet for being proud of me 🤗
Giving up the puffs is very hard it's not only a habit but a drug that we're giving up.
Doc said the nicotine goes within 24 hrs I think it is. The rests habit. Both very difficult as we know.
Pauly I heard a while back they found the cost was more for them to look after people with smoking related illnesses. Crazy eh.

Grandy you're very welcome ☺ All true dear friend. If only you could see what we know about you. One day hun 🕊

So how's it going darl being a CC.
I think you're fabulous and very good taking this new role on my lovely friend. You've a lot to give which you always have and do.

Darlin it's good you want to go back to work.
I have to say though I'm concerned...very actually that they're not meeting the requirements geez.
I wonder if you bring it up with Betty in the arvo and new girl maybe someone could talk to the appropriate people.
It's certainly not unreasonable to want to feel secure and safe in your workplace and for the customers. Please look after yourself beautiful 🤗

That'd be a relief I imagine dear Betty getting little Bindi.
Phoo not good nearly falling. Could be the cause for her falks wow not good. So cute though what Bindi does but I guess you probs don't think so understandably 😄

So glad the boys responded and are being careful.
Poor Dil she's going through such hard times isnt she as you all are that care about and love her too.

It is a good feeling having security & feeling safe being loved. It's warming isn't it.

😆 loved your commentary and so touched you gorgeous having my blanky on 💗 and the 😂...👒..here sweet... a matching coloured 👜 but Oh no.. never to replace or be confused with our 💼 SO love it. You really are priceless.
The colours for beanie sound really nice.
Cool you doing some more rows. Go girl 💃 Oh Soz hun I thought you were knitting it.
Awesome you did more cause I know doing things is hard for you too.
I really like that 5 minute way Pawsy said about and you found you'd do longer a lot. I'll try it sometime. If thought was action I'd get untold done 😉

Good hearing you're ok around your boss. He must be a good bloke.

Hope you're feeling good both ways lovey.
Your turn gorgeous how's your health going?

Love you very much dear friend..you're the best soul sista anyone could ask for.
PubAok lysvm awyis yadimh bbff wiwyip 😢

Nigh nite everyone

👩‍❤️‍👩💜🕊🗯👀✨💃🌹

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩..and everyone...🤗..

I went to work today...On my way their I passed an accident, got to that spot just as they were putting a lady into the ambulance...The road is 100kilometre per hour country road..no gutters..It was also slippery with black ice...I wish so much people would slow down when it’s so cold like this..The condition of the car looks like speed involved...So sad to come across something like this...

We heard later on that she will be okay...Which made us feel better...Newbie and Betty also came across it as well..only one way into town..

Work was okay..still very busy...with donations...It looks like everyone cleaned out their closets during isolation.😁..Not sure yet..there’s talk of the shop closing again...

Haha..If thoughts were actions, I would have so much done..I am doing a few rows each day... The colours are nice pastel colours ..I know you would like it...You know me so well....My mind can be brilliantly clear and see what I want to make..Then boom 💣 it all disappears when I start doing it...I just can’t seem to find a reason for doing anything, then it gets put away...

Im doing okay mentally and well physically not that good with my groin/hip/leg..Unbelievable painy ache mainly at night....Dr. has given me a referral for a bone scan now...to get a better look...x-rays showed arthritis in my hips, pelvis and back...

Im off to make a cuppa now..and bed early I hope..Its really cold here at night..the mornings look beautiful with all the frost around turning things white.

Thank you for your nice kind words Deebi...Love you bbff 💜🧸🤗...yadimh..sss..

Good night everyone...I hope tomorrow is better then today was.. my love , care and hugs..💜🦋🤗..

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy...🕊🌱

[monkey_magic]

Hi Grandy,

I had a chuckle at "if thoughts were actions I'd have so much done."

So true for all of us lol.

Sorry about all the pains...I get it...I have awful things going on with my body. Understanding overload.

I was ouing a bit today.

White landscapes r so peaceful and beautiful!

I will forever remember my snow trips.

Hope U sleep well tonight

🤗

[demonblaster]

Hey beautiful Grandy 👩‍❤️‍👩 Magic 🐒 and all 🖐

Hiya bbff 🤗 that would've been hard seeing that going on. So good hearing she'll be ok poor lady.
Yes speed is a biggy and that Black Ice is really frightening.

Good thoughts they probs are doing the closets in quiet time 😁
Tbh I really hope they do close again.
Seems ludicrous them not adhering to the Covid rules.
I or anyone including you obviously ☺ don't want you getting sick darlin or being at risk of.

I know lovey. In mania it's all clear as crystal...shame it's in short bursts isnt it but it shows us it can be done. I find that incredible.
Wow tho good on you doing it in bits that really takes a lot. Good way of getting it done too. I get it completely It's a massive wall.
You'll get there gorgeous it really does sound so nice and a boom accomplishment.

Nasty stuff Arthritis. With luck they can do something geez it sounds so painful. Glad they're looking further into as well. So hard getting nourishing sleep with pain. Feel for ya sweet 😚

That does sound so beautiful all White from frosts. Where I was born same loved it. Crunchy lawns usually lovely sunny days to follow.
It's nice being cosy and warm under Blankys eh.
Not too bad here so far. Nothing like yours ❄ brrr

Only truth spoken precious and you're very welcome 💜

Take care sweetylove. So much love time care and 🗯beautiful lady.

Sleep well gorgeous's 😴


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